Hey guys!

I got an offer of joining a swedish website as a blogger. Everything will be in swedish, tho I hope you still want to follow me! I'll probably type some posts in english :)

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I'm supposed to have my last meal at 8 pm... BUT I CAN'T! I'm so full that it's impossible to eat more... Even though I'm only at 800 calories so far!


Candice Swanepoel (Retouched) vs Me (Un-retouched) 2 yrs ago

Go figure why I want to get back in shape...

I think that I've told you about this one before. Tho I have to tell you about it again, I swear by that it's the greatest face mask there is! I believe it's greater than any expensive department store face masks, the aspirin mask!
It's super easy and will exfoliate and leave your skin looking younger and fresher!

This is what you need:
A small plate
2-5 aspirin pills (uncoated)
Honey
Water
A CLEAN face

1. Crush the aspirin pills with a teaspoon onto the plate, so that it kinda looks like a illegal drug

1. Add a tiny, tiny teaspoon of water, or like only a small drop.
2. Mix it together with your fingers
3. Add about one teaspoon of honey
4. Mix it together until it has blended and looks like a scrub
5. Put it on your face in a circular motion and leave it on for about 10 minutes, then rinse with water.

I would recommend using a moisturizer right after because it can dry out your skin. You should also only do this mask max twice a week, and avoid suntanning (you should always avoid that).
The mask can be put anywhere you have impurities. I use it on my upper arms because I tend to get small spots on them.

I PROMISE you'll love it! However, if you've got super sensitive skin, leave it on for max 5 minutes.

Girl you look good won't you back that ass up
You a fine motherfucker won't you back that ass up
Call me big daddy won't you back that ass up
Girl who is you playing with, won't you back that ass up
You working with some mad shit, you bad, yeah
Girl you working with some mad shit, you bad, yeah

... I look at fat people and forget about it.


It really works!

Gooooooooooooooorgeous !

I can't understand that there's still people who check in daily to see if I updated. I have read all of your comments and your mails and I have missed you like crazy. However, my life has been seriously crazy the last couple of months. Crazy to the point where there has not been any energy to update and put on a smiley face.
I actually miss writing here everyday, read your comments and just have that special connection some of us developed together.

Anyway... Let me tell you what I've been up to...

I've been traveling like crazy for about 3 months. Went everywhere! You name it and I was there!
Then... Something really weird happened. I guess that my brain was left in some other part in the world. I moved in with my ex!!!! Who's only interest was to drink beer in the morning and let me clean up after him. The he put all the blame on me when I decided to move out.
With me I took one dog which we got together... So I'm now a dog owner... Don't get me wrong, I love her and all, but this was not supposed to happen! I did not want a dog!

I moved out while having several panic attacks and the asshole left the apartment with a beer in his hand. No help what-so-ever! I never regret anything in life. But I really do regret him. I really do! The only thing I miss is the other dog, his sister and brother.

So now I'm back in my old apartment, cleaning up the mess he left in me. Tho life goes on and I'm going to go back to being who I once were. I'll erase every memory and move on.

On top of this, I gained 5 kg while living with him. I lost an uncle (may your soul rest in peace, I love you). I lost my best friend to insanity (which she believes is love). Tho I will never lose myself like this again!

The 5 kg's are gone. My uncle is in heaven. My ex-best-friend is probably having a fight with insanity (in her words - love).

This made me start hating. I who have always loved.

Left is me and my dog, Bella.

Oh, you are all so amazing, love you guys!

I said that I would tell you about my diet. Haven't started a "new" diet, only cut back on carbs to not look bloated on the beach. I'll give you a post about this soon.

I've been giving you lots of diet tips, and now I need your help.
I just wonder how you can forget about someone? Like completly let them go. How do you do that?
There is one person I can't let go of, even though I was the one who ended it.
God is telling me that I should not let go because it is someone that will be in my life again, in a better way next time. But I am sick of not forgetting... How do you handle this kind of situation?

 

John Mayer is with me. I love him!



I'll probably start a new diet today. Tell you about it later!

It's time for a serious change!

I discovered something new about me. For a while now, I've been really... how do I say it... well, I've been real. You know, if someone did me wrong, I used to just forget about it and move on. Now I don't. If someone does something to me that is not okay. I think about it once, twice and sometimes three times before I act and then I drop a bomb.
Every time I feel like dropping a bomb, I think about it for a while so I'm sure that I'm not overreacting. If I feel like I do, I stay calm. I actually called my psychologist this morning and talked about my behavior. He said that I am NOT overreacting. I told him everything that has happened and he said that I'm normal, and the reason that I'm seeing him is that I haven't been reacting before... Like I used to only brush it off... So I guess I'm "normal" now.
It always feels good to be confirmed by my psychologist about what I'm doing, if it's "right" or "wrong".
He said that I shouldn't waste my time on reality that won't do me good. And that I've now realized what really does me good!

Amen!

During the past month, I've been to Brussels, then went back home. Went to Rome, fell in love with an Australian guy who I proposed to. Drove around in Tuscany, bought some bottles of wine I've had at Era ora in Copenhagen (can only get them there). Then went to Pisa to check out the tower... Got disappointed. Went back home. Unpacked then packed again and went to Stockholm. Stayed over the weekend then went up north to Sundsvall where I used to live as a kid. Haven't been there in 10 years so I visited some friends then went back home the next day. Stayed home for 2 days then went to Toronto in Canada... I'm now back in Sweden and need to leave again.... any ideas where I should go? Think I actually want to stay in Europe.

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Update:
Will go to the south of France to visit another hubby... someone I proposed to in 2008. It's great to have a lot of hubbies! Nah... I wish! This one is seriously hot tho. Could be a future hubby. He calls me wife... so... whatever happens...