I don't like potatoes and gravy...
I hate it. Let me hate it.
Friday morning
Good morning!
What a lovely friday! I will start it with a powerwalk in a few then work on some stuff I'm planning for my future. I've got a weird thought in my brain the last 2 weeks, something is telling me to move to London. Like, what am I going to do there? I always listen carefully when I get ideas that are repeating themselves, without me forcing them to appear. So, I'll look at some possibilities of moving there... haha wouldn't that be something?
What's strange with my ideas and what I decide is that a lot of things happens during that time that are testing me to see if I really want it or not. Like last december. You might remember that I said that this would be a single year, that I should not be with anyone but myself. Then someone totally knocked me down for a month and then I got back up on my feet and kept walking. I realized that I was not meant to be with someone, I got attracted, but could not feel a thing... So I'm still single. Just the way it is supposed to be! I can be too much to handle to myself sometimes, how could I possibly handle someone else also? There's also too many hot men that I would miss out on... haha... (Though I said that I didn't even want a lover in december... changed my mind now, wouldn't say no to that ;) ) Ah, I might start thinking about relationship stuff when I'm 25. 2 more years of just me! Lovely :) I wonder where I'll be by then... When I'm by myself, big things happen! If you've followed my blog for a long time, you know that I have been really messed up, in a good way!
Okay, let's drop that and do some ab workout and a powerwalk!
Later!
(All of your comments have been answered, if I missed yours, let me know)
What a lovely friday! I will start it with a powerwalk in a few then work on some stuff I'm planning for my future. I've got a weird thought in my brain the last 2 weeks, something is telling me to move to London. Like, what am I going to do there? I always listen carefully when I get ideas that are repeating themselves, without me forcing them to appear. So, I'll look at some possibilities of moving there... haha wouldn't that be something?
What's strange with my ideas and what I decide is that a lot of things happens during that time that are testing me to see if I really want it or not. Like last december. You might remember that I said that this would be a single year, that I should not be with anyone but myself. Then someone totally knocked me down for a month and then I got back up on my feet and kept walking. I realized that I was not meant to be with someone, I got attracted, but could not feel a thing... So I'm still single. Just the way it is supposed to be! I can be too much to handle to myself sometimes, how could I possibly handle someone else also? There's also too many hot men that I would miss out on... haha... (Though I said that I didn't even want a lover in december... changed my mind now, wouldn't say no to that ;) ) Ah, I might start thinking about relationship stuff when I'm 25. 2 more years of just me! Lovely :) I wonder where I'll be by then... When I'm by myself, big things happen! If you've followed my blog for a long time, you know that I have been really messed up, in a good way!
Okay, let's drop that and do some ab workout and a powerwalk!
Later!
(All of your comments have been answered, if I missed yours, let me know)
Don't make this day an vajayjay day!
Happy valentines! Give and receive lots of love!
This is what I can share...
I'm looking through some pictures from when I went to the US.
If you care to read it all, you'll find that this is a little more... me. (Which I normally don't want to bring up)
Right after my flight. You know when you enter the US, the boarder security always had a bunch of questions about what you'll be doing there. Since I've been to the US several times before, without a more permanent visa, they were very curious so I had a plan. Didn't put any makeup on at all, braided my hair in one piece, pulled over a big woolen cap and had ballerinas on my feet. Because when you enter looking a lot better than you usually do, you know like done from head to toe, that's when you'll have problems! (Did that on my first trip to NYC)... left the airport several hours later. Though they were still very curious and you can not lie to them... And what I had to say was kinda funny which made them even more curious. That's something I can't write about here. Anyway, so I went into the restroom right after I picked up my bag. Put on my heels, let my hair down and put on make up. As you can see... putting on make up in a restroom with dimmed light is not something you should do. The driver had to wait for me (sorry) then he took me to a castle where a charming prince opened my door, held out his hand with a big smile and gave me a warm hug. Ah, lovely :)
The next day I went to my first basketball game ever! It wasn't really any basketball game. I obviously had to attend an NBA game as my first one. Why settle for less? Just kidding guys! :)
The "prince" friend warned me about two big bangs at the beginning of the game (check out the fire). I freaked out and laughed and forgot to get it on camera, which is not really important anyway. Then I sat with a huge smile the entire game, loving every second of it, it was so freaking awesome! ;D Although, the team was without the hottest and best player... Sad of course, though I was a happy girl after the game, and during the night, and during the next 6(?) days. Hehe... That might have been too much info... I will probably delete some of this when I sober up from my insomniac state.
So... The other days was a lot of fun. Great to see another part of America and spend time with great new friends. Got to see another game which was even more awesome because they won.
Then it was time to go back home again... I took a final look around, sighed a little. A sigh of thankfulness. A sigh full of humble. A sigh with happiness. A sigh with a small feeling of sadness. Then the "prince" opened the door of the castle, gave me a true "Hollywood" moment in the elevator (go figure what I mean). Opened the car door, held my hand once again, smiled, gave me something beautiful to remember, then I went back home...
Haha uh come on... It's always prettier to read something like this than "Whatever, I packed my bags and left", right?
Now don't get it twisted, I have a lot of friends, I treat them all with the same respect as I receive. You're first strangers, become friends, stay there - maybe become best friends, stay there or go somewhere else. I am a very careful person when someone else is involved. I don't want promises, neither do I want to give them until I'm sure of something. Because of this, I have been single since I was 15 when I ended my first relationship after 2,5 years. Whoever I have met after has not been relationships, only dates and some serious dating. Though it sure would be fun to fall in love some day! We should all be happy with the ones we're with :) That's what counts!
A Swedish move in bed, then I hope to fall asleep.
Good night ♥
If you care to read it all, you'll find that this is a little more... me. (Which I normally don't want to bring up)
Right after my flight. You know when you enter the US, the boarder security always had a bunch of questions about what you'll be doing there. Since I've been to the US several times before, without a more permanent visa, they were very curious so I had a plan. Didn't put any makeup on at all, braided my hair in one piece, pulled over a big woolen cap and had ballerinas on my feet. Because when you enter looking a lot better than you usually do, you know like done from head to toe, that's when you'll have problems! (Did that on my first trip to NYC)... left the airport several hours later. Though they were still very curious and you can not lie to them... And what I had to say was kinda funny which made them even more curious. That's something I can't write about here. Anyway, so I went into the restroom right after I picked up my bag. Put on my heels, let my hair down and put on make up. As you can see... putting on make up in a restroom with dimmed light is not something you should do. The driver had to wait for me (sorry) then he took me to a castle where a charming prince opened my door, held out his hand with a big smile and gave me a warm hug. Ah, lovely :)
The next day I went to my first basketball game ever! It wasn't really any basketball game. I obviously had to attend an NBA game as my first one. Why settle for less? Just kidding guys! :)
The "prince" friend warned me about two big bangs at the beginning of the game (check out the fire). I freaked out and laughed and forgot to get it on camera, which is not really important anyway. Then I sat with a huge smile the entire game, loving every second of it, it was so freaking awesome! ;D Although, the team was without the hottest and best player... Sad of course, though I was a happy girl after the game, and during the night, and during the next 6(?) days. Hehe... That might have been too much info... I will probably delete some of this when I sober up from my insomniac state.
So... The other days was a lot of fun. Great to see another part of America and spend time with great new friends. Got to see another game which was even more awesome because they won.
Then it was time to go back home again... I took a final look around, sighed a little. A sigh of thankfulness. A sigh full of humble. A sigh with happiness. A sigh with a small feeling of sadness. Then the "prince" opened the door of the castle, gave me a true "Hollywood" moment in the elevator (go figure what I mean). Opened the car door, held my hand once again, smiled, gave me something beautiful to remember, then I went back home...
Haha uh come on... It's always prettier to read something like this than "Whatever, I packed my bags and left", right?
Now don't get it twisted, I have a lot of friends, I treat them all with the same respect as I receive. You're first strangers, become friends, stay there - maybe become best friends, stay there or go somewhere else. I am a very careful person when someone else is involved. I don't want promises, neither do I want to give them until I'm sure of something. Because of this, I have been single since I was 15 when I ended my first relationship after 2,5 years. Whoever I have met after has not been relationships, only dates and some serious dating. Though it sure would be fun to fall in love some day! We should all be happy with the ones we're with :) That's what counts!
A Swedish move in bed, then I hope to fall asleep.
Good night ♥
Here's something weird...
I've been awake for 24 hours when I'm typing this. Last night I got less than 4 hours of sleep. I've been trying to fall asleep like five times now, doesn't work... So I just stay up and listen to music. I'm obviously hooked to Marilyn Manson and I've been saying the chorus to my favorite one since I first heard it 2 days ago... Do you know what it is?
"I can't sleep until I devour you..."
I'm repeating this all the time. Isn't that kinda weird? I think it's kinda creepy. I have always believed in that you get what you ask for. Because everything I've done in my life, everything I have, everywhere I've been... I have asked for it and received. Good and bad stuff. Be very, very careful what you ask for!
So, do I now have to devour someone? That's not a part of my diet... neither is there someone here to devour.
Listen to it. DO NOT repeat the lyrics! You'll end up insomniac! Or something worse...
06:16 am... I'll give it another try!
"I can't sleep until I devour you..."
I'm repeating this all the time. Isn't that kinda weird? I think it's kinda creepy. I have always believed in that you get what you ask for. Because everything I've done in my life, everything I have, everywhere I've been... I have asked for it and received. Good and bad stuff. Be very, very careful what you ask for!
So, do I now have to devour someone? That's not a part of my diet... neither is there someone here to devour.
Listen to it. DO NOT repeat the lyrics! You'll end up insomniac! Or something worse...
06:16 am... I'll give it another try!
Help, please!
My eyes are wet, my heart is bleeding. I'm not a crier though some things can break my heart.
I'm in my own apartment, have food inside of my stomach, can drink water whenever I want to, can take a shower whenever. I can visit my mother or father whenever I feel sad. I have friends I can go to whenever I want to talk or spend some time. I have clothes that keeps me warm. I can light a bulb in a second. I do not have to worry how I'll survive tomorrow. This is nothing one thinks about, but we have to count our blessings! Count your damn blessings! There's so many people in the world that doesn't have our luxury, so many of them dies RIGHT NOW! Right now as I'm typing this, they die!Imagine this. Somewhere in the world, might not be far from you, a child is cold, hungry, alone, without a mother and a father. This child WILL DIE if we don't do whatever we can to help. Please, please, please, from the bottom of my heart, HELP THEM! I don't want anything for christmas, for my birthday, or any day, except this! If I could, I would give every single child in the world a big hug with so much love that my heart would stop.
Do something! Please! The world is so unfair...
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YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS! NOW! hahahaha this is sooo funny! I saw this video a few years ago and thought about this song now while I was in the kitchen, boiling some "MACARONES"! Hahaha...
He has taken over...
Mr Manson has taken over... I better open the Bible...
Did anyone say... "denim"?
I'm late...
Manson and hairproducts?
It sure was a POWERwalk listening to Mr Manson. I thought about something funny... imagine dating him. Like imagine first time you spend the night with him and you wake up in your sleep and see him next to you. I would freak out! haha... well I would obviously not date someone like him... or would I? It would be kinda exciting... hmm...
What I wanted to dedicate this post to is something that has nothing to do with him or this kind of music. I want to share my all time favorite hair product. I've tried so many different ones but nothing beats this one!
What I wanted to dedicate this post to is something that has nothing to do with him or this kind of music. I want to share my all time favorite hair product. I've tried so many different ones but nothing beats this one!
Spray on wet or dry hair. Whatever you do it will work miracles!
uuuuuh I'm in a hurry, got to be somewhere in an hour...
Later!
I'm up!
Uh *yawn*...
Good morning!
Time for a powerwalk with Mr Manson
Good morning!
Time for a powerwalk with Mr Manson
I just wanna be successful...
I should probably be in bed right now because I have to be up in 5 hours! But what am I doing? Singing along with Drake (yes, I am singing) and looking through pictures.
Two new ones and some that I found from back in 2009...
THIS is the body I'm going back to! No one, nothing, nada will stop me! It's probably around 5 kg. A little bit of running will take care of that ;) I remember that I was on the peanutbutter diet when the pictures in the green dress was taken (also my first night out in a year!). Though I'll eat what I eat now and run some.
Now I'm hungry and have 4 hours of sleep left...
GOOD NIGHT
Two new ones and some that I found from back in 2009...
THIS is the body I'm going back to! No one, nothing, nada will stop me! It's probably around 5 kg. A little bit of running will take care of that ;) I remember that I was on the peanutbutter diet when the pictures in the green dress was taken (also my first night out in a year!). Though I'll eat what I eat now and run some.
Now I'm hungry and have 4 hours of sleep left...
GOOD NIGHT
Breakfast!
80 g oatmeal
200 g light curd cream
100 g strawberries
5 g flaxseed oil
Flaxseeds and cinnamon on top
500 delicious calories!
Go big on your breakfast. That way you'll stay away from snacking.
Yum yum!
COOOOME OOOOOON!
What happened to me? I'm sleeping way too much. I fell asleep at 5 am and woke up at 2:30 pm!!!!! NOT OKAY! I've never been jet lagged before. Why now? Ah, I need to be up before 8 am tomorrow so I'd better fall asleep early tonight.
Anyway, just came back from a powerwalk. A great one! Got so many new ideas that I will make something out of. Powerwalking is great for brainstorming. So it's almost 4 pm and it's time for... breakfast?? Huh...
Anyway, just came back from a powerwalk. A great one! Got so many new ideas that I will make something out of. Powerwalking is great for brainstorming. So it's almost 4 pm and it's time for... breakfast?? Huh...
Food!
I went shopping and got back with this!
Tuna, arugula, mushroom, cabbage, lentils, whole wheat macaroni, olive oil, passata, cottage cheese, curd cream... and obviously some diet coke... Though no more than one can a day! That's my "treat" as funny as it might sound.
First day of dieting, didn't start well!
I fell asleep around 3 am last night and woke up at 8 feeling like CRAP. Something in my body gave me so much pain that it brought tears into my eyes. I stayed in bed, crying, for one hour then fell sleep after two strong painkillers. Woke up again at 4pm(!) I do not like sleeping this much, though I didn't sleep for more than 24 hours so I guess I needed it. Anyway, new day... new diet! I'll start it with an all day fast to shower the inside of my body then get on my diet plan tomorrow morning. Nothing extreme, just like what I've been eating before, only fewer calories.
You might wonder why I want to diet. Well, even though I tried to chose healthy options in the US, it is difficult... Everything has hidden sugar in it and I also didn't want to be too controlling while I'm somewhere to meet someone to just focus on having a good time. I've had chocolate, I'm not going to lie... I also had wine. The wine has turned me into a balloon again so that needs to go away.
My diets are never hard to follow, they are not expensive, they don't take a lot of time to prepare and you always feel so much better after only a few days. The hard part is where I am now, feeling and looking like I do, though in 3 days I will look and feel better :) I miss powerwalking and running so much... So, so, SO much! Tomorrow.... ah!
Need to get out and do some grocery shopping!
Later!
You might wonder why I want to diet. Well, even though I tried to chose healthy options in the US, it is difficult... Everything has hidden sugar in it and I also didn't want to be too controlling while I'm somewhere to meet someone to just focus on having a good time. I've had chocolate, I'm not going to lie... I also had wine. The wine has turned me into a balloon again so that needs to go away.
My diets are never hard to follow, they are not expensive, they don't take a lot of time to prepare and you always feel so much better after only a few days. The hard part is where I am now, feeling and looking like I do, though in 3 days I will look and feel better :) I miss powerwalking and running so much... So, so, SO much! Tomorrow.... ah!
Need to get out and do some grocery shopping!
Later!
What my eyes have seen, will stay with me...
I fell asleep for 4 hours then got up and went to see my love, Olivia. She sure did put a smile on my face, she always does. I have been visiting two great guys, true gentlemen indeed! Though what I've seen with my two eyes, and the two I stared into, will stay within our four eyes. It sure was pretty, I can tell you that much :)
Don't know if these four eyes will meet again... Because of this I am obviously a little sad but I had fun and feel blessed that I got to meet such great guys! What's important is that we're all happy in our situation, wherever it will end up. Friends, lovers... or nothing.
Whatever happens... happens. I'm not a rusher and I have a lot of things going on that I have to set as my first priority.
So I'm back home with a new interest, basketball! Haha who would have thought? I basically had the shirt on the entire stay (picture)... Loved it because it was like a dress on me! (Tall guy) And now I'm in my couch again with this shirt/dress on, will go to bed now and get some rest. Tomorrow I'll "hire" myself and will be on a diet to get back to where I used to be! Follow me :)
Good night ♥
Home...
I'm back in Sweden! I need to get some sleep, didn't get a minute of sleep during the flight. I'll update you when I'm human again!
I'm here...
I made it, they let me enter America yet again! Always the same funny questions... Anyway, I haven't been sure about if I should tell where I am and what I'm doing because it's a little too private to share. Though as you can see, I am in Detroit. It's a snowing madness outside but I'm in a super comfertable couch, wearing a huge hoodie that reaches down to my knees. All the dresses I brought here are shorter.
Oh, another funny thing... we went out for breakfast this morning and OH MY GOD it's insane what people eat! A girl came in with her boyfriend or something. They sat down and she ordered something that looked like a gigantic cake! It was pancakes with syrup, whipped cream and jam. It was HUGE and she ate it all! My God...
From a second thing to a third, I'm going out to watch a ball game for the first time ever! I'm so excited :D Bet it will be great! So what am I doing here? Go figure... ;)
