Stephanie Andersson

I fell asleep and woke up now, 3 hours later! Huh, was I tired or what? Funny thing is that I dreamed that I had a party at my place, where we all drank wine and I binged in cheese... So there will probably be cheese for dinner. Now I have tons of stuff to do all night.

But first, I'll head down to the gym. I sooo wish I could go dressed as Kate Moss there. But I don't think that it would be appropriate in a public place. So on goes sneakers, pants and top then I'm out!

Waaaaaaaaaah.... Don't drink celsius! One reason is because it tasted so damn artificial, another one is that you feel nauseous because of the taste and the caffeine! I'm used to caffeine but this was something else... Yuk! I didn't feel more energized, just disgusted, I'd rather have a much cheaper and tastier diet coke.

But I did work out, and here's what I did.




Kinda the same as the other days. 672 calories.

Good morning, I woke up an hour ago... Freezing like crazy. It's so damn cold here! I'm still tired, don't have any energy. Though I'm not the biggest fan of coffee, I opened a can of Celsius that made me even more cold for a minute. But I need some energy for my morning workout! I tried this drink for the first time yesterday and I must say that it works! The thing with "Burn up to 100 calories and more in each can" is something that I don't really believe in. Sure, I think you can burn more with it, but 100 calories is a lot for a drink to burn off. However, it's energizing... and expensive.





Even though I'm cold as hell... I'm not going to stay inside and be lazy, gym it is! Don't give up on your workout, it is soooooo amazing!!!!! Anyway, I wanted to add that I weighed myself for the first time in forever yesterday, and then I weighed myself this morning - with a difference of -1.3 kilos. Either my scale needs a battery replacement, or I need to eat a lot more protein to stay the same. I want to keep my muscle! Don't want to go back to being super skinny... It's not very attractive with bones poking out everywhere. Imma give you a picture of the skinniest if you want... Though you need to comment some more! ;)



I love this -
"So she throws him at the wall and kisses burn like fire
And suddenly he starts to believe
He takes her in his arms and he doesn't know why
But he thinks that he begins to see"

Love this song! I don't know why, but I think he's hot! He's different, which I think makes him hot. He looks kinda interesting. However, I think he's gay... Don't you think? Ah why do I care, I got the hottest one already.

Celsius needs to be finished then I'm out!

I've been to the gym twice today... so here goes...

First time;


751 calories

Second time;


652 calories

A total of 1403 calories burned this Wednesday.

I bet you wonder why I do this - It's as simple as that I'm a control freak, I want to feel that I can do whatever I want. If I set a goal in the morning, I HAVE TO DO IT! If not, I failed. Which is why it's 1403, 1399, 1489, 789 etc wouldn't be good enough. I'm also addicted to the rush I get when I work out. In my late teens, I did some "party drugs" (who hasn't?) but ran away from that because I know I'm easily hooked to stuff (cigarettes!). So when I work out, I feel an insane rush through my body that I just need to get more of! But hey, whats better, drugs or cardio? You'll be the judge!

Just want to add that I was not addicted to to that crap a couple of years ago, I just opened the wrong door, but closed it quickly again!

Now I'll eat the biggest dinner ever!

I'm soooo loving it!


Also guys, I'm a little disappointed... I've increased with a few hundred readers a day... And you never comment on anything... Shame on you!

"Stephanie. U want to come to playboy mansion Halloween party with me in Hollywood next month?"

Ehrm... Do I have boobs for that?


I love the two fat guys in this pic...

I obviously couldn't stay away...



I'm gonna marry the gym ♥


My legs, oh god my legs! They are starting to get rock hard! I wish that my knees will get better so I can start running again. Ah, how wonderful would that be?! Like a dream!

I am sooooo damn cold! Winter is coming to Sweden VERY SOON! I need to move a little to become warmer, I'm freezing my ass off in my apartment... Damn...

Good mooooorning! I fell asleep right after my post last night and woke up at 8:40(!). I've been working some and will head out for a powerwalk in a few. I need the energy for work and studies today, can't kill myself at the gym... But I know myself and might end up there anyway.

Ah, I want to give you another song that I love, it makes me so damn happy!




Later guys!

Might have to do with my late workout... huh!





This is my favorite song at the moment! Loooooooove it! It goes on repeat all day long... I'm singing along right now, but because I do not want to kiss a girl, I'm singing - "His lips, his lips, I could kiss them all day if he'd let me!"



Haha... My God... I so need to fall asleep now... it's 3 am

Night!

If you're new on my blog, can you tell me where you found me?!

I hate underwear when I work out... I obviously need a sports bra but the panties can literally be a pain in the ass! If you work out a lot you need something that wont irritate you. So I searched and found these sexy little things! Works awesome in the gym... or in bed? ;)



I found them here

I love that you can get ten pairs in different colors! Or all in one if you prefer :)

It felt like I was on top of the world! I always say to myself "I can do whatever I want!", it is so damn effective! Like sometimes I feel like crap, I don't want to deal with anything... So then I repeat "I can do whatever I want!" a couple of times and then I DO IT! Give it a try! I burned off 1165 cals on the gym today... I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT! Nothing and no one is going to stop me!

I'm in my couch, typing this while I listen to Melody Gardot with a glass of red wine and candles everywhere... :)

I'm going to the gym now.... I'm not leaving before I'm dead...



Workout I did earlier today... Can you tell I have a lot of things on my mind? (read my previous post)

I'm on a carb rush at the moment... So I think that I can accomplish a killer session at the gym in a few!


Laaaaaater!

I just had a major wake-up-call. I've been questioning a couple of things in life the past months, the answer was no where to find but within myself. In a little more than a year, I've been experiencing ultimate happiness, but also been in a complete darkness, in which I couldn't even get out of bed some days.

I started to read through my blog and realized that I've changed dramatically. With this I do not only mean that I've lost weight, I mean that I am not even close to who I was before this roller-coaster year and a half. I'm not sure what to think about it... I'm not sure if I should start writing about it because I made a decision to not be as personal in my blog as I once were. I'm going to give you the naked truth about it and say that I'm scared to get hurt. Not only in my blog, but in my private life too. It's kinda hurtful to write this too... But something happened today that made me decide to dare to feel! I had a conversation with someone that opened up my eyes, she saw something that I haven't, and I'll quote her "You have a wall built up around you, where you need to be in total control and distract yourself from any kind of feeling" SPOT ON!!!!!! Let me give you an example - I never cry, why? Because when I start getting emotional, I quickly find something to numb my feelings, so I wont feel anything. (Don't worry, I don't do drugs!)

So why do I write this now? Aren't I emotional in my writing? Yes, I am! And this is something I guess I need to work on. One day wont fix me... So I'll be at the gym in a few to run away from it, can't face it yet.

I'll probably delete this post... It feels like someone else wrote it, and I'm very uncomfortable with being this open. It also feels "geeky"... You know like emotions are for geeks... Which is obviously false (got to remember that).

Anyway, hope you had a good one!

This morning... 565 cals on the crosstrainer, 52 cals with 10 % incline on the treadmill. 617 calories burned! Yaay :)

As you can see, I don't give a damn about my appearance at the gym. I'm there to work out, not to flirt or look pretty. Braid your hair instead of putting it up in a pony-tail, your hair wont be damaged or break as it often does with a tight pony-tail

1st time

2nd time

Yaaay I love a tough cardio workout! It's 9:40 am, time to hit the gym again! Cardio, abs and but... Here we go!

Sh*t, what a day! I went to the gym twice today, before breakfast and before dinner. Did 550 cals on the crosstrainer two times(!) which obviously equals 1100 calories... I wasn't tired at all... Honestly!


1st time


2nd time

I haven't been able to eat much at all today, I had to force every bite down. Not a calorie over 500. My goal is to be at 2000 when I work out this hard... But I don't even want candy. :(



I know that this is really bad, so I don't need a smart ass to tell me that (hope that will save your time). I will get some new proteinpowder tomorrow so I can get my calorie and protein intake up. I've been and will be stressed as hell for a while, which leaves me less time to make lunch and dinner. However, I will NEVER give up my workout due to lack of time. Working out gives me energy which makes it easier to handle stress. Make your body your number one priority! If it's imbalanced, everything in your life will be too.

Tomorrow will be better! :)



Nighty nighty y'all! (With a southern accent) Haha...? Gosh.... I'm a retard:)

This is, by far, the most interesting documentary about the human body I've ever seen!

Bare with me guys! Life's crazy right now... I'll be back tomorrow!

♥

200 g cod
170 g cabbage
60 g low fat / low calorie cream (milda mini mat extra)
50 g mozzarella light
50 g green peas
40 g corn

I'm up to 800 cals.

The first powerwalk is done and breakfast is eaten! It's my moms birthday today so I'll help her with all the preparation for her dinnerparty. However, the will be NO cake for me! I'll show you how I'll deal with that.


Breakfast - 409 cal

The day is coming to an end and I'll fall asleep after 1411 calories today. I still feel kinda crapy but it will be better tomorrow. My body will be back on track by then :)

Oh, I'm such a baby right now. Watching the final episode of Tough Love on tv. Everyone is in love, kissing, hugging and crying. It's so beautiful :) Being in love is pure happiness. I hope they keep that feeling forever.

I googled "true love" and found this...



Hahaha... this kinda ruined my moment...

Yesterday was the final day of the first week, which was my "cheat day". It started with a protein shake, the one I showed you in a previous post. Then we went to Jägersro which is a horse racing(?) arena. We had the most amazing lunch, salmon with creamy potatoes (cream and cheese) and then we had dessert, panacotta with raspberries, orange and mixed nuts. It doesn't end there... Olivia brought a soft gingerbread cake with her, so I ate that too. For dinner I had 1/3 pizza and then candy... Uh, I feel like shit today... Anyway, week two started today, one powerwalk, breakfast and lunch is done. I'm going to head out for my second powerwalk in a few then have dinner. So far I'm at 800 calories.

Later!

I don't know how my friends can bare with me...



I just sent this in a text to a friend... Saying that I'm a "Ärt-hjärna"... You swedes get it...

This is, by far, the best tasting proteinshake I've ever tried. I first tried it after a work out and I fell in love! It tastes like ice cream / vanilla custard. It comes in chocolate, strawberry and cappuccino flavor, but vanilla rules! I'm a sucker for everything that tastes like vanilla. I don't know where you can get them abroad, but if you live in Sweden, you might find it at your gym or at MAXI where they cost 19 kr (2 dollars) Quite expensive for a drink, but it's worth it, I promise!


This is another favorite I have. However, I have only seen it in the US. I used to buy them at Duane Reade in Manhattan. Can't remember the exact price, I guess it was 3-4 dollars. (Everything is expensive in Manhattan)
I obviously only bought vanilla :) If you've seen this in Sweden, please let me know! I might go back to NYC soon, so I'll stock up on them.



The best protein powder is most definitely this one. It is insanely expensive compared to other brands. I've tried strawberry, chocolate and vanilla. The vanilla flavor taste just as great as the two above. I guess the prices for this brand is 150-200 kr for the smallest one all the way up to over 1000 kr. I've got a big ass one at home which is almost empty. I think I paid 1200 kr for it. You can find it at health stores such as Life.

Good morning!
I am not as tired today like I was yesterday morning. I have a million things on my mind that I need to do something about, so today will be busy... However, I will stick to my plan as it is day 5.



Plan for thursday:
60 min powerwalk
400 calorie breakfast
400 calorie lunch
60 min powerwalk
400 calorie dinner
300 calorie snack



In: 1500
Out(exercise): 500

I've been busy all night with work so I haven't been able to blog. Day 4 ends in 31 minutes on 1423 cals. The cravings went away after a while and I'm not hungry at all :) Why? Because my body gets exactly what it needs, all the vitamins, minerals and calories nessecary to function properly. I have to finish some paper work then I'm heading straigh to bed!

Good night!

So, how do I handle cravings?
1. Welcome the cravings. Tell them that it's okay for them to be there.
2. This might sound weird but it works... Talk to your cravings, ask them "Why do you want ice cream so badly?" Do you get an answer? Are you tired - have a nap or a cup of coffee. Are you bored - keep yourself busy, do the dished, start cleaning, go for a walk, read a book... Find things that will keep you busy and that will take your thoughts away from the cravings.
3. Think about why you want to stick to your plan. Become more healthy? Become slimmer? Don't ruin all the work you've put in to it.
4. Drink a hot cup of tea. When your liver becomes warmer, you wont crave as much.
5. Put on your favorite CD, dance and laugh!
6. Fill your mind with positive thoughts! Right now I'm looking out the window, thinking about how wonderful it will be in a few minutes when it's time for my pw. How great I feel after, how beautiful it is when the sun is shining and so on...
7. Take a hot shower! This works kinda in the same way as with the tea in #4. Keep yourself warm.
8. Are you drinking enough water? Dehydration can cause cravings. You might mistaken it for hunger. Drink a glass of water!
9. Call a friend and chat about everything.
10. Write your feelings down on a piece of paper, let me give you an example:
"I really want to go to the store and buy a big bag of candy"
But what it really means is
"I'm bored, feel cold, don't have much energy"
What can we do about that? I know that I have to keep myself busy, I have to move around to get warm and if I do this, I will be energized = POWERWALK!
So instead of consuming 1000 calories (which I would if I went and bought candy), I'll burn 250 cals on a powerwalk and be proud of myself for managing my cravings.

I bet you know what I'll do now :) Time to get out in the sun!

Paprika, celery, tomatoes and chicken. I'm still going for 400 + 400 + 400 + 300 a day.
I've been waiting for the cravings to show, they came out today, day 4. I'm thinking about carbs, starch, sugar.. mostly sugar! And ice cream... mmm...

I'll give you a list of how to handle cravings in a few.

Day 4! I can definitely notice a difference when I look at myself naked in the mirror, yay! I'm not weighing myself so I don't have any numbers for you. I might get up on the scale in a couple of weeks to see where I'm at. Numbers doesn't mean anything, nothing at all! It's how you feel about yourself. I'm not doing this just because I want to be thin, I'm doing it to burn fat, have a toned body and feel amazing. I could eat candy everyday and still lose weight, then I would lose a lot of muscle which wouldn't be attractive. But anyway, I was so tired this morning when I woke up but didn't skip my powerwalk, I never skip it! It looked damn cold outside so I put on 3 sweaters!!! After walking for 5 minutes I was so hot but kept on walking. The sun is still shining and I was kinda feeling high during my pw. That can happen when your body only has fat to burn (no carbs). Funny feeling :)


(Tired as hell with three sweaters on, therefor my very unhappy face)