Stephanie Andersson

UHHHH! haha.... Waiting for Olivia to pick me up so we can WORK! It's damn cold so I have to dress in a big warm sweater which makes me look huge!

Yaay I got another A+!!!! :D Feels like things are heading the right way for once. When one door closes, another one opens. Anyway, nothing too special is going on today. I've been home for a week now and haven't even had time to pack up my bag because of all my tests last week. So I'm going to clean my apartment and get my clothes back in the closet. I really do not feel like staying inside and clean... I want to be outside and do stuff! Hmm.. I can clean for an hour, then be outside for an hour and then finish my cleaning... DEAL! I'll be working at the soccer game tonight with Olivia, can't remember when I worked the last time... haha. We'll have fun! :D

Oh my god... oh my god... oh my god... oh my god... I just got the BIGGEST modelling oppertunity EVER! No BS! What should I do? Oh my god... Oh my god...... MY GOD! I'm FREAKING OUT! I PROMISE that I'll tell you more about it once things are decided. OH MY GOD!

almost 2 am... f*cking insomnia... AH! I'll try again...

This is what I had today so far, quite different from my other diet huh?
425 calories, it's after 6 pm... I'm going to eat a lot of oranges tonight to get better.

I'M SICK! Can't breathe through my nose and my head is about to explode. Not a good time! I have too much to take care of with my education, huge tests are coming up! One of them can seriously make my life so much easier if it goes well. So I'm throwing my other diet in the bin, need to get more vitamins! The diet I was on was a high fat and low carb diet. It really works because it took me down from 56 to 53 last year in less than a week (no, not waterweight!)... but eating fat all the time makes you feel sick. Being healthy and happy is way more important, eating fruits and veggies will make me lose weight too. That's what made me lose 10 kg in less than 6 weeks!

Even though my head is about to explode, it's also exploading because of so many ideas that are poppin up. I got a GREAT one that can give me a start of an awesome careere if it works. That is all that is important to me now. No energy will be left on anything else than myself, I've been very selfless for a long time, that's gone! I'm going to get out for a while with my notebook and write down all my ideas and try to figure out how I can make this work. Big dreams, big!

I got a few more questions about the whole weight loss thing. Every single one of your questions has been answered before in other posts. If I do not answer them, I apologize and kindly ask you to look through my previous post or search in the search engine on the right--->

One question that I get all the time is how to lose A LOT of weight FAST! I only have one answer to this, starvation! Now don't go freak out on me. I'm not saying that it's the solution to losing weight, it is the opposite! If you starve yourself, you'll lose muscle and your body will hold on tightly to the fat... therefor you're going to get a week, ugly body. Do not starve yourself! If you then start to eat again, your body will gain weight like crazy and it will mostly store fat, which equals that you'll end up fatter than before. Some say "well then I'll never eat again". Do that and you'll be dead very soon.

It might come across kinda harsh, but there is no quick fix to get a thinner, healthier body. You basically just have to move your but and eat a little less.

For example. Lets say you're stuck on the weight you are now. You eat just as much every day but don't really exercise. Try this ridiculously simple thing - make your portions a little smaller - eat half a sandwich less or take away two small potatoes from your plate, take away something from every meal. Begin with short walks, not for long, start with 20 minutes if you never get any cardio workout at all. I PROMISE YOU THAT YOU'LL LOSE WEIGHT! I do not have a certain special power that can tell how long things will take, neither am I God that knows everything. Try for a week. Weigh or measure yourself the first day, and then 7 days after, got any results? If you're stuck at the same weight or gained weight, see a doctor! I'm that sure of that it will work for you!

Being nice to someone who's trying to lose weight does not make you motivated. Sometimes you need a slap across your face to wake up and REALLY DO IT! I adore you all, I think you are amazing and many of you have told me that you've lost weight because of me, that KICKS ASS! :D But reality isn't nice, the truth doesn't caress your body with a feeling of cute pink clouds.

When I realized that I really had and wanted to lose weight... I cried for days because of the truth that was up in my face like a painful punch. I stopped crying, threw the chocolate in the bin and went out for a run. I've always wanted to lose weight, but people always told me "Nooo you don't need to lose weight, you're so pretty!" that made me stay at the same weight, gaining some and left me depressed. And now they all say "Good for you that you lost the weight, you really needed it!". Some say that you shouldn't listen to what other people say about you, I say that you should listen when it's something that can give you a huge amount of motivation... that can be life changing, trust me!

So here goes... Today I had 1593 calories, 125 grams of protein, 115 grams of fat, 20 grams of carbs.
I ran this morning for an hour, went out for a one hour walk during the afternoon and worked my abs.
I've also been working my brain like hell due to two big tests yesterday and today, tomorrow I have the biggest one! If I would eat less calories, my brain wouldn't function and there is no way that I would risk getting a lower grade than an A+. Education is way more important than worrying about calories.

The diet is a form of a ketone diet, which is a very low carbohydrate diet. I added a little more carbs because your brain function can be 20% less efficient while lacking carbs. Your brain runs on carbs! If you have been in ketosis for a while, which is the state your body is in when it doesn't get any carbs, your brain will accustom itself to this and use energy in the form of stored fat and the fat you are eating (yes that is true!).

Any thoughts or questions about this? Feel free to send me a comment and I'll answer as correctly as possible :)

I feel full, satisfied, and feel great about my two tests. Wish me luck tomorrow for the big one!

I've only been on the diet for three days and it feels soooo good already! I'm back to where I was before I went to NYC last time :D 8 days of eating cake and chocolate, 3 days to get it all off, that's impressive! I think I had a whole lot of water weight that I put on during those days, it's gone now! Although, I have no idea what I weight, and I do not even care at the moment, I just want my body to go back to where it was before.

I want to go back to this! And add some abs... Don't know how long it will take but I'm not going to push myself too hard this time, I'll just melt away slowly :) Though I think it is easier to stay motivated if you have a certain deadline when it all should be done, I'll set mine on my birthday, April 15th - three weeks. Abs will not appear that fast, but by then I'll have a great foundation to work with.

I'll give you a hint later on about what I'm eating! Have to continue on studying right now, finished one test yesterday, have one today and one more tomorrow... Oh, wish me luck!

(In NYC last year)

Gosh I'm so tired... Couldn't sleep at all during the 7 hour flight and didn't get more than 40 minutes of rest a while ago. My stomach is killing me because of everything I've been eating, it was seriously ridiculous how much I ate. But it doesn't matter, it was worth every single bite! Especially yesterday at brunch at the Waldorf Astoria, said to be the most luxurious brunch in Manhattan - I sure do agree on that! I had oysters for the first time ever and swallowed them with champagne - I've been living in a dream world, seriously! But now I'm back in reality again... My adorable mom picked me up this morning and gave me the CD of Salem Al-Fakir, I love him! She sure knows how to make her sad daughter happy again. It's now in my iPod and will be enjoyed while I take a walk outside to get some fresh air :)
I'm later going to meet my aunt, Olivia and Helen who said that they missed me and really want to see me... wow what would I do without them? They can be described in so many amazing words, but the best one is just LOVE! Love, love and even more love! ♥



Salem :)

(Brunch at The Standard Grill, Manhattan)

... and it sucks! I miss New York! mmm.... give me another mimosa! Gee I've been gaining weight like crazy the days I've been in New York. I've usually been taking it easy with the alcohol, because it's the thing that makes the pounds jump right back on the fastest. But I couldn't resist it this time, champagne every day and now I look like a bloated pig... But a very happy bloated pig though. As soon as I came back home, I went out for a run which was sooo damn hard... my heart could barely keep up with it! Anyway, the bloated pig will become a skinny bitch again in no time, just gotta keep on running! I have no idea what I weigh at all, feels like I'm at a 100 kg... but that is quite normal after a trip to NYC. I obviously don't like what I see now, I feel that I look the best when I'm at 53-55 kg... Truth be told, I think I'm about to hit 60! So I'll have to run off about 6 kg. Huh... It's gonna take a while, I'll give it 4 weeks. You think I can do it? I lost 10 kg last year this time in a month, so it shouldn't be a biggie. Although I don't want to be a "skinny-fat" which basically means what anorexics are... Or what starvation creates, gets rid of your muscles and saves on the fat - not sexy. So no "only-veggies-detox" for me, have to give my body protein to obviously. To do this, I've created my own special diet. I got my inspiration from another diet but personalized it for myself so that it wont be a slave to someone else's diet plan. It's a very cheap diet which I so need right now, students aren't rich! Even though my life seems fabulous sometimes, it isn't when reality sets in and I'm back in my apartment in Helsingborg. This is where I work hard on myself and my education... Honestly, who would want to bring me to the other side of the world if I would be fat and dumb? I work for it!

So anyway, if the diet works for me, I'll share it with you! The diet is on 1500 calories a day, which makes me wonder if it's possible to lose what I want in 4 weeks. But I've tried a similar one before, it got me down to 52 kg... too much for someone that is 174 cm... ah whatever, it's not the numbers on the scale that matters, it's how you feel about yourself! And I don't like being a bloated pig, so I'll create magic in the coming weeks, that's for sure!

It's only a few more hours left until I'm on the flight to New York. My trips there are never really planned, they are kinda spontaneous and this trip was decided less than 2 days ago. So basically I freak out when I realize what I have to get done before I leave. I spent the whole day yesterday finishing a disgusting test in school, hated it! Today I have been around my town to get things I need, including dill chips for Mr sexy! (he loves them). Right now I just finished 2 hours of waxing which means that my skin hurts like hell and I'm red as a strawberry. So glad the waxing is over! Now I just have to go to my dad to use his sowing machine (It's his ex, my dad doesn't sow). I have like 10 pairs of black jeans from my chubby time to now, and my smallest ones are huge so they need to be taken in. My roots needs to be dyed, I have to take a shower and scrub my poor skin so it's ready for a fake tan AND THEN I have to pack my bag. Hopefully I'll get at least one or two hours of sleep, need to get up before 3 am!

Don't even know if my dad's at home, would be a good idea to check that now...