2011, BRING IT ON!


I have tons of dreams and goals that will be fulfilled this year! I'm so excited to start with a fresh new one.

Let's make this new year the best one so far!


Powerwalk!




Avocado in my heart (and stomach)

Sometime last night I must have been sleepwalking. I woke up and saw the peel of an avocado and felt the taste of it in my mouth. Ehh...?

I get weird cravings like every two weeks. The previous one was red onion, cucumber right before that and now it's avocado. I can eat this craving-foods every day, loving every single bite. So why not dedicate this post to the avocado since I eat it in my sleep? Haha...

Avocado is a fruit, it's kinda high in calories since it's fatty. Per 100 g an avocado has 168 calories. I however believe it's a miracle fruit!

"Contrary to popular assumptions, the avocado can be a helpful part of a successful weight-management program. It brings several advantages.
  • Its monounsaturated fat speeds up the basal metabolic rate, as compared with saturated fat.
  • Its high fat content gives a quicker feeling of satiation ("fullness"), thus helping to reduce overeating.
  • Its high fat content makes an overall sound diet more palatable, reducing the temptation to binge on foods high in sugars or saturated fats.
  • Its rich supply of vitamins and minerals also makes the diet more wholesome and satisfying and thus more conducive to overall health and to moderation in consumption."
  • http://www.regenerativenutrition.com/content.asp?id=443

    The omega-3 fatty acids in avocado helps prevent wrinkles, helps improve your brain capacity and creates a beautiful skin. Due to vitamin E, your skin will feel soft and healthy, also leaving your hair shiny and gorgeous.
    Avocado has many more health benefits, so why not include it in your diet?

    I love avocado! ♥



    I will probably eat one or two today so I'll show you what to do with it...

    (I'll answer all of your comments right after my powerwalk)



    Oufit of the day...



    Haha naaah just kidding. This is a pic from when I walked on CPH Fashion Week. In this outfit Patrizia Pepe and Dagmar. Sweet memories :) I believe I was 52 kg here, 174 cm tall. The shortest girl of them all!
    Though one thing is funny, or maybe not so funny. At the casting, I got chosen pretty fast, though there were some girls that the casting director told were "too fat!" like straight to their faces. The modeling world is very honest, and somewhat cruel. It was fun to walk though :) The not so fun part is to be hungry all the time... very stupid! When I walked back to the train I bought a big bag of candy and ate it while I was walking. Can't begin to tell you how many people on the street stared and wonder why the hell a model would stuff herself with candy. I had a dream, to walk on fashion week. I did it then left it. Another story is that the agency wanted me to go to Milan and continue... That would probably end up with an anorexic Stephanie.

    Waaay too much fun!

    I haven't been practicing what I preach to the fullest. I've been out for two saturdays now! Though keeping my diet very clean and healthy. Even though I've been eating well, my body is not used to alcohol so I'm swollen like crazy, face, arms, stomach, thighs, everywhere! I feel really bad about that when I look in the mirror. But I know that if I keep it clean and work out as usual, I'll be back on track after a few days. But my God I had fun!

    Last saturday, we went out and I met some guys for the first time and had a blast. Went from one club to another then ended up at a afterparty. Me and a guy made snowangels at like 5-6 am in the morning. We ran around, throwing snow at eachother, then I fell in with one leg into a pool. Who hides a pool under the snow? With water in it! Gosh it was cold! Haha :D Then three of us stayed in the same bed until 6 pm... We came back home 7 pm the next day!


    As you can see (and hear) I was so excited about the snowangels! Finally met someone that wants to be like a kid with me :D (Sorry about the cigarette, stuff like this shouldn't be in my blog at all).

    Last night, started at a party then went out. I got some serious mood swings at the third club. Myself and Malin met two men that I wasn't interested in at all. One of them gave my too much attention so I sat down in a couch, told him to get out of my face and leave me alone... So not like me, I'm embarrassed :( Then we left, went into another club but decided to go back home. So I woke up with Malin, just the two of us this time :)


    Last night! Haha we obviously had to use the pole...

    Hello rehab!

    I wonder if it's possible to have a love affair that lasts forever

    When I first met this quote, it was march 2009, friday the 13th... (ironic, isn't it?)
    I didn't pay attention to it that much then, though when my eyes had been stareing at it several times during a year I finally realized that it's not possible to have a love affair that lasts forever. I so wish it was.
    I think I now know that I really don't want a relationship. It's too messy, takes to much of your energy and time. Time that you could invest in your own wellbeing. The only one I want to have a relationship with is with myself. No one is more imporant in your life than yourself.
    I can not wait for this year to be over. 2010 has by far been the worst year in my life. Hmm... but maybe I shouldn't say that it's been the worst. I mean like I had to face so many dark sides that I've been forced to confront fear and grow stronger, learn so much about myself, more than I have done in my 22 years.
    This year has made me love becoming older. Awesome right? Older and wiser.
    What I've seen with my eyes, experienced in life, in only 22 years, is something that very few of us gets to see.
    I am proud of who I am today, damn proud!
    2011 will be a great start for the rest of my life. I'll leave the city I'm in now, and probably move in with a man, though not a lover, a great friend! Then I'll use my own experience and courage to create the best possible version of life for myself. No man, no lover, only me :)
    So Mr Andy Warhol, the only way you can have a love affair that last forever, is that if you create it with yourself!

    My heart starts to wonder where on this earth you could be



    Lala... listening to The Script this Friday night. I was supposed to go out for a while, but it's damn cold outside.
    The whole building smells like weed, guess someone is having a party. Disgusting! My apartment has a lovely scent of vanilla due to my scented candles... mmm love it.

    Another song started playing right now. I want to share it with you because it's kinda big to me. Big in the way that I listened to it while I was on my hardcore diet last year and lost 10 kg in 5 weeks. I had a goal then, the goal was to lose 10 kg and go back to NYC and maybe fall in love. This song played all the time during my first stay ever in NYC, so therefor it became meaningful to me. I listened to it every night, missing NYC like crazy... "If we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door". Basically, if I try to quit and give up, I wished a higher power would help me stay strong. And I did it :)



    Commit to never leave your healthy lifestyle!

    Lovely night. Just finished a long phone call with my sexy man. We're great friends and I'll visit him next week. No love yet though. Guess I'm just too busy right now. Can't seem to get happily in love while I have tons of things on my mind. I'll give it a try! But like Warren Barfield sings, love is not a fight, but it's something worth fighting for!

    Good night my precious readers ♥

    Powerful thought

    I just read something brilliant. It's so obvious though we dont realize it. I read it in Swedish but I'll translate.

    "When you do something that's not working, stop and do something else"


    I believe that women are the ones that always try to fix stuff though we know that it's not working. "Maybe if I do this, or do that, then it will work!". We are scared of failure, scared that other people will point their fingers at us and say that we failed. Why don't we just do what we can do? And stop fixing whats impossible. It will not lead anywhere.


    Bring it on!


    I'm facing a lot of different challenges in life at the moment. I made it through a few of them and have to stay strong!
    One would expect that good things happen to good people, and that you get what you give... HELL NO! The world is a cold place, people are cold and don't appreciate kindness. Though I'll never become evil. I'll still keep my heart as big as it is, love and never regret. What I'm happy about is that I have two different personalities in work and private life.
    Oh well, I have to take a break from work that's making my head spin. Going out on a powerwalk even though my foot is destroyed. I'll leave the photo small so you can click on it if you want to see... I'd be disgusted if the image was big.


    Huh sorry to freak you out haha. That's what happen when you can't sit still for a second...

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