Who needs that many books for 2 courses?
As i've told you before, I'm picking up my studies again which for a period of 10 weeks will be business economics and psycology. I got a mail about it today, and from what I understand, I will have to buy 7 books for 2 courses.... SEVEN BOOKS!!!! I'm just so delirious right now, exploading with joy! Hmm.. not really. Happy that I'll study, but not so happy about buying 7 books. Oh well, I invest in my own future.
Good night!
Good night!
Tuesday 11:53 am
I'm dressed in DKNY pure (tunic) Armani (Jeans) Forever 21 (Top) Tommy Hilfiger (Bag)
Later!
I have a new favorite!
Sorry for a shitty update, I'll slap myself and be better tomorrow :)
Comments about al-qadaffi's speech
Muammar Al-qadaffi and Gene Simmons
First one down the pipe...
This was so much fun, but I lost to Olivia, I need to practice and then become a bowling pro!
Hmm... my neighbors are having sex... thin walls! Doesn't seem like they care...
just made a strike! Haha woho
just made a strike! Haha woho
bowling time! Jacket from armani,
bowling time! Jacket from armani, jeans from levis, scarf from some place in manhattan :-)
Bowling!
Sunday, oh hello dear (not so sunny) Sunday!
Bowling with my mom, aunt and cousin is on the schedule! That will be fun, haven't been bowling since... hmm... last year with the clubs and restaurants of Helsingborg, which is called "krogbowling". Basically it means that bartenders, club owners and other people that works in clubs get together on a sunday twice(?) a year, get ridicilously drunk and "kill" the bowling lanes. Not going to be drunk today though :) Thinking about if I should try something with my hair, color it in a blond color, and see if it will turn out more natural. Ah, we'll see :)
Have a good one ♥
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Eating the lovely duck liver again! That time at out hotel "Wynn" in vegas of course :)
Saturday 9:45 pm
Saturday night, I'm not out as usual. I've been quite unhealthy the last week so alcohol would only make it worse, instead I'm at home trying to get back on my two healthy feet again when all I really want to be in Las Vegas, eating foie gras with my sexy man. Uh, back to reality...
Stupid picture doesn't want to stand... Anyway... it's from The Mix in Vegas :)
Stupid picture doesn't want to stand... Anyway... it's from The Mix in Vegas :)
I'm scared!
I and my mom went to my aunt, we watched Borat which is just as good every time! Then I drove my mom back home when I had "cravings" for sparkling water. So I decided to go to a gas station which I knew was open after midnight, I turned into the gas stations where I saw like 20 guys, looking a bit scary. I sat in the car and watched them, and I got scared so I drove away! What is happening to me? Earlier during this evening, we discussed going out in this town. I said that it's totally useless to go out here because it's disgusting (megalomania huh?). I mean because of the way people behave, everyone is drunk to the extreme and is out for a few reasons, one of them is to take someone home to fuck, the other one is just to numb insecurity. Anyway, not saying that everyone's like that, but it keeps me away from going out. I'm not drinking to numb insecurity, and I'm very satisfied with the other part, so don't need to bring someone home. But maybe that's why I'm so scared of going out now? Ah, I don't know... I went to Seven Eleven, parked just outside the door, ran in, got my stupid sparkling water and drove home to my apartment. So now I'm sitting in my couch, drinking my water like a little scared child... Good night!
Driving in the desert
From when I went to Las Vegas :)
It's been a while...
since I posted a pic like this... so here you go! Trying to get rid of my bellyfat, so far so good! :)
Good night ♥
Good night ♥
Olivia and I are the cinnamon roll masters!
We just made 59 cinnamon rolls, how awesome is that? Now it's time to eat them and watch family guy. Fat camp 2010, here I come!
taking out my extensions in a few
taking out my extensions in a few minutes, will I be bald? Haha hope not!
Very old pic...
I'm the kid in the middle with the hottest bang ever!
Blah blah, I'm going to bed now, so damn frustrated and angry at stuff... retarded world...
Koziolek matolek
And because I'm half polish, this is something I watched with my grandmother (may her angelic soul be safe with God).
Sooooooooooo funny :D Miss my grandmother though :(
Sooooooooooo funny :D Miss my grandmother though :(
oooooh <3 Björne!
Nostalgia is present with me at this moment, my childhood was awesome and this is something that reminds me of how great everything was (and still is). Before I sat down on the floor (always on the floor) I had a bath, a cup of tea and then danced to the first video, as soon as the music stopped, I sat down to watch "Björnes Magasin".
I did my crazy dance and sat down as soon as the music ended.
This is a show I watched every night as a little girl. It started in 1988 (when I was born) and I loved it for years... haha I'm so ridiculous but it brings tears to my eyes.... aaaah I want to be a kid again!
And after this, it was time for bed :)
♥
I did my crazy dance and sat down as soon as the music ended.
This is a show I watched every night as a little girl. It started in 1988 (when I was born) and I loved it for years... haha I'm so ridiculous but it brings tears to my eyes.... aaaah I want to be a kid again!
And after this, it was time for bed :)
♥
Vote again :D
New round! Be as awesome as you were the last time and vote for me again :D
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Love!
You rock!
Thank you, thank you for voting for me :) I'm in the new Moore Magazine, which I didn't know until I heard about it today. Without you I wouldn't win ♥
Don't you think that I should have a cover soon? Would be fun :) Anyway, thank you again! I will give back!
i'm out having coffee with Anna :-
i'm out having coffee with Anna :-)
Tired of looking at stupid pics of goats and stuff, going to bed, good night!
No nipples in this blog!
♥
If you search you'll find...
I'm searching through my mac for other pics and what I find is interesting...
I have many pics like these... hmm... where do they come from? haha...
I have many pics like these... hmm... where do they come from? haha...
Time flies...
Found a few old pics from my "young-days" which looks like it was in 1980... I remember how retarded I was a few years back, had a little too much of everything bad... Didn't really use my brain... but I wont tell you more about that! Feels like it was yesterday, time flies!
Outside a party from when I was like hmm... 17? During this time, we went to "house parties" and drank vodka out of a plastic bottle... uuuuuuuuuuuuh *shivering*
This is what happens when there's too much of everything going on, I think I'm flying.
On a boat, on my way to a club in Denmark, at the age of 16? Still flying...
My god... why am I showing this?
Hahaha, I always got comments about my choice of outfits, even though this is Dolce & Gabbana from head to toe, how could I do so wrong?
This is from when I really got retarded (the girl on the pic has nothing to do with it)
And graduation! In the front, where I specially asked to be
There is more pics, but I WONT publish them, that would just be too much...
Outside a party from when I was like hmm... 17? During this time, we went to "house parties" and drank vodka out of a plastic bottle... uuuuuuuuuuuuh *shivering*
This is what happens when there's too much of everything going on, I think I'm flying.
On a boat, on my way to a club in Denmark, at the age of 16? Still flying...
My god... why am I showing this?
Hahaha, I always got comments about my choice of outfits, even though this is Dolce & Gabbana from head to toe, how could I do so wrong?
This is from when I really got retarded (the girl on the pic has nothing to do with it)
And graduation! In the front, where I specially asked to be
There is more pics, but I WONT publish them, that would just be too much...
Good morning?
hmm.. maybe not morning now, but anyway, I still feel bad and my cold doesn't want to go away or break out, uh...
My mom is coming over and then we'll go and pick up some food for today, big food fiesta today! She's making applepie at the moment, aaaah I can't wait, give it to me now! Great weather here today, sunny and warm, but I think it's the last warm day, and then it's gone... I should move to a warm country, or an exotic island, wouldn't that be something? blah blah need to put some pants on so I don't go out in a thong, it's not that warm.
NYPD in Helsingborg...
I'm a police officer today, NYPD (laundry is to be done tomorrow, I'm out of clothes to wear)... I'm not gonna write much about weight and stuff but just have to say that the body is amazing (even though I think it's useless). I gained more than 2 kg in NYC, and I lost everything and a little more, how wierd is that? Funny thing is that in the "real world" I'm thin, but from all the models I've seen in NYC, I'm huge, trust me! If you were there to see it, you would agree. Anyway, going out for a while and then home to my mom, later!
Finished cleaning
Looks better now, right? But I'm not better, I feel really bad... I felt that a cold was about to burst out so I tried to get as many vitamins and veggies as possible but I feel even worse. I'm shaking like a leaf because I'm cold, and I'm wearing thick socks, three big and thick shirts, jeans and a scarf and I drink hot tea with lemon all the time.. aaaah! What more can I do? :(
Is she desperate?
Cindy Crawford, a former supermodel is now a model for furniture and shoes. The furniture are ridiculously hidious and the shoes are even worse, why is she doing this? Maybe she doesn't have any good taste at all, or she's just desperate for work...
I found this in my mail, some ad for a cheap shoe-chain, and she has her own line in it... Look at the shoes... why does she do this?
Well I guess that everyone is having a hard time at the moment, but I think that she has other options, don't you think?
I found this in my mail, some ad for a cheap shoe-chain, and she has her own line in it... Look at the shoes... why does she do this?
Well I guess that everyone is having a hard time at the moment, but I think that she has other options, don't you think?
They were there! Guess they skipped lunch...
I've finally signed up for my studies, yay! Although it was surprising that they were there today. I'm going to study the second stage of business economics and also the second stage of psycology, and that's all!
I just had lunch which I didn't have to get out to get because I went grocery shopping yesterday, so my fridge does not only have a bottle of vodka (I'm half Polish, a Vodka is inevitable), a diet pepsi and a bottle of wine.
I'm asking myself why I show you this... uh... kinda messy, right? Anyway, John Mayer is singing to me but not through Spotify because it doesn't work anymore, so I got his CD and got dissapointed. I got used to listen at his live performance so the original studio recorded versions aren't that good :( Why can't he just come over for a cup of coffee and some singing? I have to clean first, then he's welcome!
Friday
Good morning! I woke up at nine, thank god that I never get jet-laged! I went for a run to the beach and back, little more than an hour. It's so beautiful there today, sun is shining but it's kinda cold and they are reconstructing the street down there which is not as beautiful. I'm going down to sign up for my studies in a few, hopefully there'll be someone there this time. Oh well, I'll update later!
At "N" on top of the Peninsula hotel in Manhattan, great combo of Marlboro's, Rossini and a sexy man next to me ;)
Ah, let me go back now!
At "N" on top of the Peninsula hotel in Manhattan, great combo of Marlboro's, Rossini and a sexy man next to me ;)
Ah, let me go back now!
My favorite song!
My God my tummy hurts from laughing hard, I adore this guy!
let there be blood! I'm making a s
let there be blood! I'm making a salad for myself and my mom, althoug it's not blood, it's beet!
Left for the fourth time
So yet again, I left New York City to go back to reality and stop living in the fairy-tale story that was present every single moment of my days in the US. As the other three times, I obviously dropped a few(many) tears when I thought about what I was leaving. A city that is so breathtakingly beautiful and amazing in many ways, a city that I’ve fell in love with more and more. The breeze of air in Manhattan is addictive, the special smell, the flashing lights, the millions of people sharing it with me… might sound weird to you but I feel alive when I’m in this euphoria. Sharing this with someone very special to me, made things like a living dream. I couldn’t ask for more than I got… I’m even out of words, can’t explain how ridiculously happy I’ve been, and still are. I almost can’t type because of new tears making a path down my cheek, making my vision blurry and the keyboard wet. Yes, I know that I’m a crying baby at the moment but in a strange yet wonderful way, it feels amazing. Although, experiencing happiness that high, and in a few minutes, feeling how it is taken away from you, is hard to deal with. But I just feel so blessed, so blessed to have this feeling in my life. So blessed to live everyday with it in my memory, hoping to someday soon push the replay button and do it all over again, even though the end sucks. I miss everything about NYC, the air that is so polluted that it gives me allergies which I don’t even care about, the smelly cabs driven by an angry man from Mexico, the 2 hour walks from one place to another, the food that only comes in one color “fried”. I miss everything, I really do. But most of all, I miss the man I’m going to NYC for, that sucks HARD right now, he makes me feel pure happiness, thank you ♥
The rain pours down on Broadway
I wanted to walk up on Broadway to Victorias Secret, even though I had an umbrella, the rain stopped me. I came as far as to Century 21, which is just next to ground zero. At Century 21 I felt like I was in Sweden, everybody were talking Swedish except the women that work there and really do hate their jobs, they scream in an deep New York (getto) accent. Anyway, I didn't get anything there as I was just trying to hide from the rain and wait for it to stop... it didn't. With my supposed to be white sneakers, I walked back, soaked in brown water. A shower is waiting and then we'll go to my favorite restaurant named "Monkey bar". To be honest, I didn't remember what I ate there the first (and only) time except the extraordinary pecan butter, and it's because of that heavenly delicious butter we decide to go back, my god I can't wait! I dreamt of that butter during my diet, my mouth will experience utopia for sure! And yesterday I had the best dinner in my life - Lobster with "fingerpotatoes" and artichokes, for a dessert I had an apricot tart with salty(salted?) caramel ice cream... I was high at that moment! (No chemical drugs involved, that I know of). I have to get get my ass of the chair and get ready for "food-utopia"!
A rainy Manhattan on a sad anniversary day
I wanted to say "good morning" and then has a look at the time and it's 1:20 pm, which is not so much a "good morning" time. Anyway, my brain has been shut down with results like no blogging what so ever for days, I apologize for that with a slap on my cheek, reminding myself to become better.
I woke up at nine, looked out and saw the rain pouring down in lower Manhattan, it's a sad day today. Eight years ago, something beyond horrific happened just a short walk away from here on this day, September 11th.
I haven't been outside today because of the rain, but I will get out for a while, walk by ground zero and stay there for a few minutes to send strong thoughts to the people who lost someone close that day.
I don't give a fuck about how I look today, it's not really important...
Wroooom wrooom
This is what we did saturday evening, went around Manhattan on a Segway with a cool little man named Itsy (like the spider, he said).
Saturday in Manhattan
This is where I am now :) (sorry for not having the pics standing) Quite a difference from Poland, don't you think?
I'm here
I'm still alive, barely. I went to Amsterdam to find out that my flight was cancelled, so I had to go to Chicago and then to Newark, to find out that my luggage still is in Amsterdam... Made me very happy! Anyway, I'm in New York City now, waiting for my bag to arrive so I can change clothes and do something!
I'll update later :)
Leaving in a few hours
Sorry for not updating today. I've been running around today, doing laundry and packing. My flight leaves at 6 am so I need some sleep now.
Sushi for dinner today! Love love love! ♥
Next update from New York City!
This is following me...
I've got mails and calls about the reality show Paradise Hotel. I thought that it was over but yet again I got an offer of being in the show. I do not want to do this... It's all about drama and sex on TV, BIG no!
Give me the trip to Mexico, as long as I don't have to take part of the show!
Or.... should I accept and go totally crazy?
Itsy bitsy spider...
I saw this huge spider running around when I wanted to tan. If it would stay at one place without going crazy I would have ignored it, but it wanted to freak me out and unforunally for the spider, that made me take action with a water bottle... It was so much bigger than it looks like on the photo.
One thing that got me even more upset is that I went to the place where I wanted to sign up for new courses for the third time, and it's closed... again! If they decide to have 4 hours of lunch break, it would be great if they can put that on the website so one knows.
going to meet Anna for a coffee an
going to meet Anna for a coffee and get some things done before I leave :-)
I want candy!
AAAAH where is my motivation to stay away from candy? The shop is 5 minutes away, and is closing in 30 minutes. I really want candy! But if I get a bag, I wont stop until I ate every single piece. Hmm... how can I handle this...
It's not a weight or calorie issue, it's just that it's really bad, and I already had chocolate today.
Update - I made it! No candy has entered my mouth. I started cleaning, vacuuming, scrubbing the floors, cleaning the toilet(!) So if the king of Sweden want to come over for a cup of coffee he is more than welcome!
from rain and cold to warm and sun
from rain and cold to warm and sunny. Going out to meet thesese and get my studies started.
From 8 to 0
I made a video last night of some pics from my chubby time to now. The song that was supposed to be in it is Filter-Skinny but obviously I couldn't use it. The song is in my ipod when I run. When I first started, it was a cool powersong when I dreamt of becoming skinny, now I just smile when I hear it, because I am skinny!
Anyway, just something I did for fun :)
I'm leaving!
I am, without a doubt, the happiest girl in Sweden right now. I'm going to New York City on Friday! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I'm jumping up and down :D I'm going to suffocate someone with kisses in a few days, I can't wait!
