Done for today
Dear God, I'm so tired of studying... Time to put my books away for today and get some sleep.
Good night ♥
Good night ♥
I look like a dork, but I don't care
I can't believe that it's December 1st tomorrow... time flies! It's not snowing here yet but I guess it will soon. The bad thing about snow in the south, is that it doesn't stay on the ground, it melts and gets gray and dirty. Not really like how it was when I lived 1000 km up north. Anyway, Just went to the grocery store to get something to eat. Even though the store is only 2 minutes away, I'd freeze my ass of if I don't put a woollen cap and uggs on. Then I obviously look like a dork, but whatever, I'm not going to put a miniskirt on and catch a cold. Dinner and then start studying business economics!
Done with my last psychology exam before the big finals!
Studying...
Psychology, interesting in deed!
Thinking about... what?
Hmm, 10 am, I need to be back at 11 so let's kick ass this hour!
What should I listen to, yesterday was Melody Gardot, who the hell power walks to Jazz music? I guess I do... No damn UNTS UNTS UNTS techno music... I'll let John Mayer sing the blues for me today.
"ANGER.."
Oh god, maybe too loud, you scared me John! Hmm now it's better.
Damn I forgot to return the DVD, ah, I'll do it later, I cant go back now..
"Gravity... Is working against me... And gravity... wants to bring me down"
Ah my old school, Nicolai, I have lots of crazy memories from that time. Can't believe how many years it has been and how much I've changed... My god I was a freak, don't think anyone at my school was as wild as I... think everyone agrees on that! But we were all teens... crazy teens.
"There's things you need to hear, so turn off your tears and listen, pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole things around.."
Why doesn't she answer my text message? Is she like a guy, trying to play hard to get? Doesn't work with me, boys or girls... ignore me and I'll ignore you... bitch... Hmm no I can't say that, I'm not an evil person, but I'm only fair.
"No I'm not the man I've used to be lately..."
WOW I've got the best idea ever, I should make a photo shoot out of that, damn that could be cool... just need to get my ass in shape so my behind looks great naked... should I do it with an empty McDonalds bag or with an apple like the original picture? But I can't have everything done before christmas, too many stuff that has to be done that is way more important...
"I don't trust myself with loving you... hold on to whatever you found baby..."
Oh I'm so hot... thought it would be cold but I'm all sweaty... uuuuh shouldn't have put three shirts on... I should walk like that guy in a t-shirt... he's just retarded, who the hell walks in a t-shirt when it's like 6°C?
"Oh, I'm gonna find another you..."
mmmmm, who's baking gingerbread? Please invite me in! That soft gingerbread cake the other day was delicious, I wish I was a gingerbread cake so I could eat myself... YUUUUK! disgusting thought... I don't want to eat myself... Now I wont have gingerbread again...
"I am in repair..."
Need to call my dad and ask him if he can change the filter of the engine of my car, can't do that by myself and it's been a while since last time... but when will I have time for that? Need to study like crazy for two weeks, my finals are coming up... oh god I have so much to study, a little depressing actually... need to turn around and go back home.
"No I'm not colorblind, I know the world is black and white..."
What?! Is it already 11? It's going to take me at least an hour to go back... ooooh I totally lost track of time... damn... and I'm hot... and feel grumpy...
"So scared of getting older, I'm only good at being young..."
On no, I think I'm late with my rent, noooo what date is it today? 29th... I can be cool, I'm not late, ah great!
"So we keep on waiting, waiting, waiting on the world to change..."
I wonder why models don't wear jeans, I heard somewhere that it is because they don't want marks on their skin. But then again, a size 23 fits me... and that's the smallest I've found... maybe they don't wear jeans because they're too big on them? All the models I've seen in Manhattan have leggings... hmm.. tricky one... but why do I care? Need to think about something that's not that serious sometimes... haha I'm retarded...
"I come through like I do when the world keeps testing me, testing me, testing me..."
Why can't I be home already? Oh phone's ringing... hmm... I'll leave it to the voice mail...
ooooh I need to go down to the city tonight and see the Lucia and feel the scent of awesome Glögg and meet Santa Clause... oh how nice... mmm...
FUCK!!!!!!! I STEPED IN DOG POOP!!! AAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! Oh just shoot me...
"Know it wont all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good..."
SHUT UP JOHN! I literary smell like dog poop now... great!
(Thought's during the powerwalk this morning. No, I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia... yet)
What should I listen to, yesterday was Melody Gardot, who the hell power walks to Jazz music? I guess I do... No damn UNTS UNTS UNTS techno music... I'll let John Mayer sing the blues for me today.
"ANGER.."
Oh god, maybe too loud, you scared me John! Hmm now it's better.
Damn I forgot to return the DVD, ah, I'll do it later, I cant go back now..
"Gravity... Is working against me... And gravity... wants to bring me down"
Ah my old school, Nicolai, I have lots of crazy memories from that time. Can't believe how many years it has been and how much I've changed... My god I was a freak, don't think anyone at my school was as wild as I... think everyone agrees on that! But we were all teens... crazy teens.
"There's things you need to hear, so turn off your tears and listen, pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole things around.."
Why doesn't she answer my text message? Is she like a guy, trying to play hard to get? Doesn't work with me, boys or girls... ignore me and I'll ignore you... bitch... Hmm no I can't say that, I'm not an evil person, but I'm only fair.
"No I'm not the man I've used to be lately..."
WOW I've got the best idea ever, I should make a photo shoot out of that, damn that could be cool... just need to get my ass in shape so my behind looks great naked... should I do it with an empty McDonalds bag or with an apple like the original picture? But I can't have everything done before christmas, too many stuff that has to be done that is way more important...
"I don't trust myself with loving you... hold on to whatever you found baby..."
Oh I'm so hot... thought it would be cold but I'm all sweaty... uuuuh shouldn't have put three shirts on... I should walk like that guy in a t-shirt... he's just retarded, who the hell walks in a t-shirt when it's like 6°C?
"Oh, I'm gonna find another you..."
mmmmm, who's baking gingerbread? Please invite me in! That soft gingerbread cake the other day was delicious, I wish I was a gingerbread cake so I could eat myself... YUUUUK! disgusting thought... I don't want to eat myself... Now I wont have gingerbread again...
"I am in repair..."
Need to call my dad and ask him if he can change the filter of the engine of my car, can't do that by myself and it's been a while since last time... but when will I have time for that? Need to study like crazy for two weeks, my finals are coming up... oh god I have so much to study, a little depressing actually... need to turn around and go back home.
"No I'm not colorblind, I know the world is black and white..."
What?! Is it already 11? It's going to take me at least an hour to go back... ooooh I totally lost track of time... damn... and I'm hot... and feel grumpy...
"So scared of getting older, I'm only good at being young..."
On no, I think I'm late with my rent, noooo what date is it today? 29th... I can be cool, I'm not late, ah great!
"So we keep on waiting, waiting, waiting on the world to change..."
I wonder why models don't wear jeans, I heard somewhere that it is because they don't want marks on their skin. But then again, a size 23 fits me... and that's the smallest I've found... maybe they don't wear jeans because they're too big on them? All the models I've seen in Manhattan have leggings... hmm.. tricky one... but why do I care? Need to think about something that's not that serious sometimes... haha I'm retarded...
"I come through like I do when the world keeps testing me, testing me, testing me..."
Why can't I be home already? Oh phone's ringing... hmm... I'll leave it to the voice mail...
ooooh I need to go down to the city tonight and see the Lucia and feel the scent of awesome Glögg and meet Santa Clause... oh how nice... mmm...
FUCK!!!!!!! I STEPED IN DOG POOP!!! AAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! Oh just shoot me...
"Know it wont all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good..."
SHUT UP JOHN! I literary smell like dog poop now... great!
(Thought's during the powerwalk this morning. No, I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia... yet)
i'm out walking, it's raining...
i'm out walking, it's raining...
damn retarded horses... Lost 50 kr
damn retarded horses... Lost 50 kr, now I have to take a loan and put myself in dept. How will I manage to get out of this crisis?
Hoe hoe hoe...
Powerwalk
I give myself one hour a day for a powerwalk, usually every morning. Not far from where I live, there's a park I walk around in and burn about 300-350 cals an hour. If you want to keep your muscles, walk! Don't run! I hate walking, I just want to take of and run like crazy every time I'm out, but as you've seen, my legs became like twigs and I was too skinny... So no running for me... (Maybe once or twice a week, not more)
Blah blah whatever, going to Malmö to watch horses run and bet money on them...
If only she could realize how things really are
I really don't l ike to talk bad about "bigger" women because I, myself, has been one not long ago... still find that hard to belive. Anyway, what I want to bring to the table is Mariah Carey. This woman has a voice like an angel, beautiful face and she is m ost definitely very curvy, which is totally fine! But please Mariah, cover yourself up! This poor woman is so delus ion al about what she looks like. She continually pours her… ample… body into tiny little outfits as though she still looks like she did when she first broke into the music business in the 90’s. Joke is, she didn’t wear tiny little stuff back when it would have actually looked good. Everytime I see pictures of her now-a-day I actually feel sorry for her. Seems like she’s trying to cling to her more youthful past or something. She could be pretty if she invested in a mirror and didn’t have “yes” people around her all the time telling her she looks great in these tiny outfits. She could look great, if she could just be true to herself and accept her size.
I want to be a vampire!
Just came back home from seeing the movie "twilight". Normally, I get bored while watching TV, fall asleep, or think about something else and forget about what I'm watching. Not this time! I thought I would dislike it but agreed on seeing it with Olivia, and my god it's good! I want to be a vampire! Or actually I'm very jealous at the girl that's dating the vampire. At first I thought he was ugly but in the end he became gorgeous, maybe because it was so romantic (his name, Edward, is maybe not very romantic). Have you seen it? I know I'm late and that New Moon is out in cinemas but I'm not a movie-freak so can't blame myself for not keeping up.
It's time to jump into bed and get some sleep, although I'll keep one eye open to see if a vampire decides to jump through my window and bite me so I'll be one of them... hahaaaaa... I'd go and bite you all! Keep an eye open for "Crazy-Vampire-Stephanie"!
Don't feel sorry for yourself, you put yourself in that situation
I've just spent a few minutes being frustrated and angry with some people. It's on the news today about young people dealing with debt, claiming that they "can't take it no more" while they sit on their fat asses, not doing anything to make the situation better. If you ask me, I think that it's extremely irresponsible to put yourself in a situation you can't handle, and even worse, have one or many kids on your arms as a young mother, without plans for the future. Sometimes I wonder what people think with when they decide to become mothers at a very young age. If the case is that they've though about it for years and planned every single step and have enough in their emergency account if something unexpected happens, then I'll be on your side.
But if you have dept, if you can't get a job and have to take loans to survive, you need to step out of yourself and look at your situation from another view. The girl I saw on the news was young, had a kid, lived in a quite big apartment, and looked like she didn't save money when shopping groceries, what can she change? She can't get rid of her kid (she could, but that would not be the best choice) There's obviously different levels of debt, and I'm not as ignorant that I don't know that things sometimes can be very hard to change, maybe impossible... I've been in the bottom, financially, and even if I would love to go spend every single coin I had, get a kid, buy 100 kilos of candy, get myself a week at a spa, buy a house, what ever... I will not do any of that before I have enough to fall back on if things mess up in life. Sweden is a helping country... we do everything for everyone that is in deep shit... And still people manage to screw up their lives. My god... what happened to being realistic?
But if you have dept, if you can't get a job and have to take loans to survive, you need to step out of yourself and look at your situation from another view. The girl I saw on the news was young, had a kid, lived in a quite big apartment, and looked like she didn't save money when shopping groceries, what can she change? She can't get rid of her kid (she could, but that would not be the best choice) There's obviously different levels of debt, and I'm not as ignorant that I don't know that things sometimes can be very hard to change, maybe impossible... I've been in the bottom, financially, and even if I would love to go spend every single coin I had, get a kid, buy 100 kilos of candy, get myself a week at a spa, buy a house, what ever... I will not do any of that before I have enough to fall back on if things mess up in life. Sweden is a helping country... we do everything for everyone that is in deep shit... And still people manage to screw up their lives. My god... what happened to being realistic?
I've been busy enjoying life
I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I haven't died... I'm still alive but I've been busy with having foie gras with truffles, Russ and Daughters bagles with pastrami salmon and Louis Roederer champagne for breakfast in New York City... It's a hard life, not many get to experience what I do, and I'd be stupid not to enjoy it.
