Another pair that doesn't fit anymore
Do you remember when I posted two photos of a pair of jeans I couldn't get in to a few weeks ago? I was so happy because they fitted perfectly then. Well, today I wanted to wear them, and they are too big. Here's the photos.
Those two are from when they finally fitted again.
And this is how they fit today!
This is amazing...
I am kinda emotional at the moment... I got on the scale, and it showed 1.9 kg! I have lost 8.1 kilos or 17.82 lbs! My jeans don't fit at all, I tried to find a belt that could hold them up, the belts are TOO BIG! I am so happy, can't even try to describe it! I actually cried a little... Oh god... Overwhelmed with happiness!
(6 days)
<3
Another rock ballad, yeah I know... I'm a sucker for them. But aaaaaaah this one is soooooo good. A rock ballad mixed with classical music, doesn't get better! And the video is beautiful!
Bed time!
Like a glove!
Here's the skirt I told you about, size 34 :D And I'm still a temporary vegetarian!
(7 days)
Awesome day
This is a great day! I nailed the test and went to the mall to find a make-up bag. I didn't find it but I met a friend that I haven't seen since last year and I also got myself a pair of shoes, a cute top in size S that's almost a little big, aaaaand a pencil-skirt in size 34 (I think its a UK size 8 and USA size 6)! Woho! The feeling of getting myself into a size 34 is amazing. It's kinda tight but looks great on!
The first photo looks like something I did 20 times a day 5 months ago (smoking)
No, my mother didn't tell me not to play with food!
Showeeeeer and then I'm out in the sun, it's like 25 °C here!
Michael Bublé
He is brilliant! Imagine having dinner in an elegant, sophisticated restaurant with him singing. That would be like a dream!
Goodnight!
Extensions
I stumbled over a photo from 7 months ago, god I miss my extensions!
Whitesnake
I know that I have posted this song before, but I jut love it so much and the former clip is no longer available so here it is again :) Love 80's rock ballads!
(8 days)
Fake it until you make it
Black and white photos because my hair is yeeeeeellow/orange right now, need it to work a few more minutes and then my roots are fixed... hopefully! Alright... I'm not stopping there, afterwards there will be sunshine in my bathroom, a coat of fake tanning is going to be applied. Then I have to go back to my studies, been studying for all day and I'm sick of it now, but as usual, I want to and will have the best grade possible.
Best fake tanner there is!
Glowing skin
If you cook vegetables, heat them up to a certain temperature, the nutrition will slowly vanish and you're left with food that has more calories and that doesn't do much good for you. I eat raw vegetables almost every time, for a few days I've been heating them up and what did that do to me? It gave me spots and a "dead face", like kind of a gray color, not pretty. Put two and two together and you'll se that the easiest way to gorgeous skin is antioxidants, and that's something you find in fruit and raw vegetables! To make my detox work better, and for myself to work better, I will be a hardcore vegetarian for the next days. I rarely eat meat, last time was 4 weeks ago, chicken 2 weeks and fish once a day... And I don't want it anymore...
So for a few days I will pretend that I'm a rabbit!
Water and vegetables, can't get any better!
No I actually don't want cake or candy, I'm not trying to fool you or myself.
If they can, anyone can!
Heidi and Spencer are now officially married. Don't know much about them because I never really liked "The Hillls" but from what I've heard, they are not the most genuine people you can find. So congrats to them, it's great that they found their other evil half! The photo is taken from last friday when Heidi went to pick up her wedding dress in LA.
Goodnight kids!
Shopping
I have just spent way too much time on net-shopping, I got myself a mini straightener with universal voltage, which means that I can use it anywhere in the world. I also got a matt-texture-wolume-powder thing from Björn Axén, haven't tried it before so we'll see if I like it or not. A make-up tan-powder from Aqualina, it smells like chocolate! From the same brand I got a body moisturizer that smells like cotton candy, I have the hair perfume and I love it! I can't eat all of those sweet things, so why shouldn't I take those amazing scents and use them in an non-fattening way? haha, yeah I'm a goof...
The straightener is not cool at all... the design is ugly, but it's the only one with universal voltage that has an okay price. Now I just have to wait for the mailman to bring me my things.... ooooooh long wait!
Raisins
♥ I love raisins ♥
(9 days)
Oh monday, isn't it a fun day?
Helloooo Monday! My foot and knees still hurts but it's time for school and I have tons of work that has to be done, so I'm gonna suck it up and go there with a smile. English C followed by a computer program course, in which I'll have a test in on Wednesday, but I'm going to nail it as usual.
My right foot is fat and doesn't like to be in tight shoes or heels (NOOOO) so I have to walk in these beauties(?). I don't even care... just want my foot to go back to normal so I don't walk like a handicapped. Yesterday I had to walk outside for a few meters, when I got there I was about to kill someone, it was so painful! I wonder how this day will be, have to walk to my hairdresser after school and then back home. If you see a blonde cripple walking down the street, please pick her up and drop her off at home and tell her to do her homework!
Anyway, so I'm going to the hairdresser to plan something that I'll do with my hair next Tuesday, waited soooo long for this! And tonight or on Wednesday, I'll bleach my roots so I don't look like a poor hooker. Time flies... need to get out of here!
Slimmed down to a size zero in weeks
This is Louise Redknapp. I first saw her a few years ago on Swedish TV, the show where she was supposed to drop down to a size zero.
"The petite singer dropped 5kg (11lb) and two dress sizes as part of a gruelling 30-day food and exercise plan to reach the controversial American size zero – British size 4." (Metro Headlines)
This is another woman trying to achieve ultimate thinness. Super-Skinny Me: The Race to Size Zero. What does it take for a normal woman to achieve size zero? In this graphic account of extreme dieting, Kate Spicer reveals the revolting cost.
From what I read about her, she lost a little more than 1 stone, about 6.3 kilos in 6 weeks.
What I don't get is why they do this, do they have some kind of secret dream about becoming an anorexic? And think it's okay to starve themselves to "prevent young girls from doing the same"? I'm on my fifth week, and I've lost 7.4 kilos. I don't think that I look like them at all, thinking about the difference in the before and after photos. Yes I know that I appear slimmer now than before, of course... But that much? Yikes! I don't starve myself, I don't purge, I'm trying to take as good care of myself as possible... By that it's easy to see that starvation is not the way to achieve your weight goal. I wont do like these adult women and show how dangerous it is to copy an anorexic lifestyle because then I would have pro-anorexians as my frequent readers. Feeding them tips and nurturing them with mental strength to keep starving. THAT IS NOT OKAY!
Your body will not burn fat if you don't feed it, it will turn itself into a starvation mode and store fat instead of using it as energy. I think that is why I've lost more than these two ladies. Trying not to overwhelm myself with proudness, my routine is also dangerous, just look at my foot and knees! But that's not going to kill me, just make me smarter and rest a little more. Losing weight is difficult, but it's not worth risking your life. Have a cookie now and then, but make it one and not 10. Make sure that you take care of your body, don't be as stupid as these supposed to be grown up women and starve yourself, it will only make you miserable and very likely anorexic.
I feel lazy
The feeling of letting my legs rest is strange. For more than 5 weeks I've been running almost everyday and now my body says that it can't take it anymore, I can't even walk like a normal person. But I won't ignore it, that would not be anything but really stupid. So I'm doing whatever I can to keep moving without hurting myself and staying on a strict diet. The weight loss is slower but I'm going down anyway, -7.4 kg (16.28 lbs).
Yesterday I cleaned out my closets and found a lot of things from the past. Letters that I wrote when I was in the age of 13-17, memories that took me back to that time... Some of the things were quite hard to read and look at, so I through everything bad away, don't want to remember things that got me sad in my teens. There's only room for positive thoughts and memories :)
(10 days)
Soooon
(11 days)
Dear Ben
I have loved this song for yeeeeeears! Otherwise I don't like J-Lo too much...
The song was for her ex Ben Affleck, didn't last long, but still a great song :)
(12 days)
Ouch...
I'm so incredibly stupid sometimes. I woke up with pain in my knees and ankles, but I still went out to run. 10 laps and the stupid people that are there in the morning don't want to move when I come, they want to walk in the middle of the road so I have to run up the hill next to them, where there's leaves and hidden twigs. So of course, I twist my ankles a few times while I try to pass. But I didn't stop... I was in pain but thought "6 more laps, COME ON". When I was home and closed the door behind me I wanted to amputate my legs.... And I have no one to blame but myself for not resting or taking it easier (and I blame the idiots in the park that refuses to move, even the ducks are smarter). My right foot is huge and if it could, it would burst into tears and scream. I'm high on painkillers and can't go anywhere today... And I had too much to eat! Hopefully It will be okay, last meal for today.
Don't tell me that I lose weight easily, you have no idea how hard I work for this...
Tandblekning
Jag får många frågor på min blogg om tandblekningen. Är det något ni undrar över så kontakta Dentaworks genom http://www.tandblekning.com/contact/
Det är en produkt jag rekomenderar men fråga gärna dem om ni undrar något :)
<3
Going to read Cosmo and Chic for a while, don't really have time for that but I need to relax for a few minutes and then start doing some not very fun thing.
I want the 13 days to pass noooow! NUUUUUU!
Paaaaain
(In pain)
It seriously hurts a lot... Going to wear these until it's better.
I'm wearing tents
You know when you wash your jeans, they usually shrink a little. I have a pair of jeans that always been tight, like a second skin. They got bigger and bigger (so I thought). Then I washed them in a high temperature so that they would shrink more, and guess what, they are still too big! Those were my favorite pair and now I drop them when I walk, bittersweet.
These two photos were taken a few minutes ago, AFTER breakfast and I'm NOT trying to hold in my stomach.
I've lost more weight - I only have 2.8 more to go, then I've lost 10 kilos! The scale hasn't been moving much for about a week, because I got more muscle mass which weighs more than fat. Anyway I'm proud of myself :) And in 13 days I will have lost everything! Can someone guess what else is going to happen in 13 days? <3
Thursday morning
I have been running 9 laps this morning, and oh god I'm tired! My knees start to hurt really bad so I have to do something about it, and my left foot is weird. I can run on it, but not walk, why? Strange... Anyway, just had breakfast, and I'm still snacking on some wolfberries (goji bär). Didn't like them at all when I first bought them but the taste got better and now it's like candy for me... No just kidding, candy will always have a special place in my heart, but the small red berries are pretty damn good! After class I'll meet Malin who's back from Norway, she has been away for about four months I guess, so it will be very nice to see her again :) 
Wolfberries (goji bär)
(13 days)
"Light hair map"
Great map, right? But I've spent a few years of my life in the middle of the brightest yellow section and didn't think that people were more blond there. Now I live all the way down in Sweden, Helsingborg.
Got the map from http://charlottemarten.blogg.se :) a gorgeous blonde!
What's up with her weight issues?
This is so sad. Lindsay Lohan is lost. This is what young girls look at, think that it's the way to look and get eating disorders, and that is not okay! I want to give her a sandwich! She's going up and down weight wise so obviously she has some kind of problem. Do you remember how she looked like just a few years ago?
She is gorgeous at that photo! Don't try to achieve "size zero", it's not attractive.
The Script
This is just great...
LALALALALALALA (I'm singing, or trying to)
Can't wear them anymore :(
I'm going to post a few dresses that I want to sell, basically because they are too big for me now :( But I don't want to sell them...
Låt oss ta detta på svenska. Första klänningen är en svart spets broderad axelbandslös klänning från Zara med volanger, SKIT SNYGG! Inköpt i Marbella januari 2009.
Storlek: M (ca 38-38½)
Säljer den för 500 kr eller högstbjudande! Använd EN gång.
Skicka ett mail till mig på: stephanieandersson@hotmail.com om du är intresserad.
Next dress will be posted soon, after I've sold this one.
Låt oss ta detta på svenska. Första klänningen är en svart spets broderad axelbandslös klänning från Zara med volanger, SKIT SNYGG! Inköpt i Marbella januari 2009.
Storlek: M (ca 38-38½)
Säljer den för 500 kr eller högstbjudande! Använd EN gång.
Skicka ett mail till mig på: stephanieandersson@hotmail.com om du är intresserad.
Next dress will be posted soon, after I've sold this one.
<3
Hi everybody, I went running and had dinner. I'm taking a shower in a few seconds... Just wanted to say that YOU ROCK! ♥ You make me so f-cking happy sometimes.
I can see it now
I just saw a "fat photo". One I had taken earlier this year... I got scared... I didn't think that 7 kilos would make that much of a difference, but I really don't look like that anymore! Thank god! Oh dear... Well at least I'm extremely happy that I made it this far, but I'm not at the finish line yet. I was blind for so many years, thought that I was super hot because I've been spoiled with that kind of comments for as long as I can remember. But this isn't only about looking good anymore, it has developed into something deeper. I want to be healthy, take good care of my inside and outside and live a long happy life :)
(14 days) or (fjorton daaaaar (tänk skånsk gammal tant) )
Cherry cherry boom boom
What is she wearing? Scary...
Transformed
Yaaay I'm sooo happy today! (Being ironic) Going for my run, haven't had time to do it earlier today.
I'm not "Steffi the mechanic" now, my alter ego is transformed to "Steffi, the healthy runner".
Steffi the Mechanic
I went to a store where they had the straightener and hairdryer from ghd. I didn't buy these because the girl in the store was terribly rude, bad at selling and looked like she hated her job. So I told her that she needs to be educated about these kinds of things if she wants to sell them, she didn't know ANYTHING about the straightener or the hairdryer. So I drove for 30 minutes just for nothing. And that's not all... on the way back something in the back of the car gets destroyed. I didn't know what it was so I stopped after a while and say that the antenna was hanging down to the ground, all pulled out with oil spots all over the back of the car. So I decided to create an alter ego, "Steffi the mechanic" and I got my hands completely black trying to fix this stupid antenna and get the oil spots of the car. 
I was angry, in the middle of nowhere, with my hair blowing in my face so I got lipgloss all over my face, and I had a pink shirt on.... and no paper towels. "Steffi the mechanic" fixed it, maybe because I am a daughter of a mechanic.
Maybe I should make it my profession?!
Bed time
I'm going to bed soon, feel so tired after my double exercise today. Going to rub in a relaxing lotion with Geranium and Rosewood and fall asleep. I'll run 7 laps tomorrow and at ten I'll be in school, I have a lot of things to do now because of something that will happen in 16 days, and I'll also get my apartment soon. Everything at once, but I'm not complaining at all, in fact I'm aroused by happiness :) Second detox day tomorrow! Good night <3
Steffis monday problem
I WAAAAAAANT TO HAVE THIS! I'm going to sleep on it... if not everybody give a donation for my hair so I can buy it NOW! uhuuuuu :( It has a universal voltage so you can use it anywhere in the world! It's annoying when you try to use your straightener in another country and it doesn't get even half as heated as it should.
I survived!
I went swimming, and I realized that I'm not a good swimmer. I did 20 laps and felt like dying after 2, but I'm a fighter! The detox treatment feels great and I can't wait to see how I feel in a couple of days. Don't have much to say, but here's another photo of the M! tour :)
(16 days)
Detox
It's monday again! I think that it's pretty rare to like mondays, I love mondays. I see it as a new beginning, a fresh start of something. This morning I drove my mom to the train and then went to a health shop and bought a detox course of treatment. It's a concentrated liquid that shall be mixed with water before breakfast. I've always been kind of against diet pills and that kind of stuff, because I don't think that there is shortcuts to lose weight. But I needed to drain my body from toxins and bad stuff. The treatment is 14 days and does taste good! Everybody says that it's disgusting but I like it. Already I feel that it's working, my stomach feels better. I'm going for a swim today, but at the moment it's The City on MTV and I can't move myself anywhere. I'm stuck here until it ends, it's a few episodes and I've already seen them like 5 times each.
Don't try it until my 14 days is over and I'll tell you if it's worth it or not :)
Are you present?
If I were a boy...
Yeah, kind of look like a boy. If I were a boy, my name would be Stefan, I would probably not be blond and I think I would live with my dad and talk about cars and engines all day. I have a face mask on which smells like a dream, it's moisturizing so that's why you can't see it in the picture. I will rub myself in to a birthday gift, Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" lotion, and then go to bed. Tomorrow my mom's going to Stockholm, lucky her! I think that she's going to that private party for the big r&b star I got invited to... Or maybe not :) She'll go to a Tina Turner concert...
6 laps tomorrow, and I'm thinking about going swimming too after school, haven't decided yet. And then I'm going to go through my clothes and see what fits and don't, and pack a little too. I'm moving in to my new apartment soon!
(17 days)
Would you buy?
Oh my god, look at my roots! They need some touching up! But I'll wait until the end of April or beginning of May because on the fifth I'm going to do something else with my hair... Anyway... Going to my aunt and cousins to have my second birthday celebration, CAKE!!!!!!!!!!!! My god, I've waited soooo long! Another thing I want to bring up, I've lost a few kilos as you all know by now... and everyday I try to get dressed but my clothes don't fit anymore, I've lost at least one dress size... sooo that takes me to my question, how many of you do think that it's a good idea to sell some of my dresses and clothes on my blog? Many blogs have done that before, but I want to check if there's a market first :) My dress size used to be 38, sometimes 40 in tops because of my two ex balloons. Tell me what you think and I'll update later :)
CAAAAKE! :D
mmmmmm
I'm in bed... again! I really needed to not do anything, although it feels strange. The M! t-shirt is sooo comfortable, and my boobs look sooooo good in it.... eh "HAHA RETARDED BIMBO" just wanted to say that, so you don't have to :) Too bad I couldn't make it on the tour for tonight, the train from Copenhagen at 4 am is not something that would be a smart thing to do. I'm going to clean my face, brush my teeth and sleep. Tomorrow I'm back in business, 5 laps! Good night ♥
M! first photos
That's only a few, there will be more photos and a video :)
My stomach looks super huge on the first two photos, it's the skirt thats very high up... So I'm not pregnant!
Miss Sweden 1993 Victoria Silvstedt
This is so funny, the guy asks Victoria who she wants to meet and she says "The King of Sweden, he seems nice" and the guy asks "Is that the reason why you want to meet him?" and she replies "Yes, because he already has a family so that's a shame(?)" (or something). I love her, she's just totally awesome! :)
Forsidejagten
Boys and girls, men and women, come on and give me your vote! You can vote from anywhere in the world, just go to http://mmm.dk/forsidejagten/4 and vote for one girl in each region, and me at number 97. Fill in the blanks at the bottom and click on the big yellow button "STEM" and I'll be very happy :) You can vote every day so if you enjoy my blog then give me one minute of your time!
THANK YOU ♥
http://mmm.dk/forsidejagten/4
#97
Saturday
And of course I have to do something about my bedroom, this is what I woke up to! I made that mess last night in a few minutes! I'll tell you about the tour when I have the pictures, I've got a few things to say about it!
(18 days)
Make up
My make up is done! I'm going to pop a bottle of champagne and do my hair! LOVING IT!
My weight loss secret!
You ask me and I explain. I have got many questions about how I can lose as much as I have, in just a short period of time. The answer is simple yet very difficult. I exercise very, very much. Nothing comes for free, that's what I've thought for more than 20 years. The 18th of March I arrived in Sweden again after a trip to NYC, that trip made me realize than I have to work hard to get somewhere. I, like every human kind, have dreams, and to achieve my dreams I had to understand that I would be so fucking (sorry) hardworking for the next coming months. And if I would make it, I could try to live my dream.
That's the absolute most important thing about weight loss, to be motivated! If you're not motivated, if you don't have a serious goal, it will be close to impossible to do what you want to. Trust me, I've tried every diet there is. Atkins, LCHF, mediterranean diet, soups, disgusting powder drinks. Did it work? NO!
So that's the second thing, don't follow diets! You need to eat carbohydrates, protein and fat. I get my carbs from healthy cereals, fruit and vegetables. My protein is from eggs, meat (rarely), beans and fish. The fat I eat is the fat that's in fish, olive oil, avocado, nuts etc. If you're serious about losing weight, then have your last meal at 5 or 6 pm, you will be hungry but that's only your body telling you that its burning calories and stored fat to keep you awake. I don't binge in high calorie foods, sometimes I do, but I allow myself to do so, otherwise I would be bulimic! Candy, cakes and late night snacks have been a part of this month. But that is something I pay for the next day.
Which takes us to the third part, exercise! Although your food intake stands for 80% of your results, exercise speeds everything up and you'll lose weight faster. I have been running since the 18th, everyday except when I got my driving license and last sunday when I went to a spa and got a massage. I run a lot... I have got in great shape (time wise) because I push myself as hard as I can. I walk to and from the park where I run for about 60 minutes. At sundays I run 5 laps, monday 6, tuesday 7, wednesday 8, thursday 9, friday 10 and saturday is my new rest day. 10 laps is about 80 minutes and when I'm back home I workout for 40-50 minutes more, abs and but. Something very important is that you have to rest. I find that very difficult because I want to keep going, but I'm trying. My body says NO but my mind says YES.
Another thing I want to say is that it isn't easy but if I can do it, YOU CAN! :)
Now I have to get ready for a cover contest I would have never done 7 kilos heavier. See me at "Diskotek Skoven" and "Club Retro" tonight!
7 down!
I went out and ran 10 laps, it was soooooo terribly hard, I wanted to jump into the lake and become a duck. But I'm down to 3 kg, i've lost 7 kilos or 15.4 lbs and tomorrow its been one month since I started. I'm going to sleep for a while because I've had like 4 hours of sleep last night. I'm starting a secret countdown, starting from 19 (days). At the end I'll tell you what its for.
Beautiful me
Good morning!(?) I want to have my birthday today too, but I have to wait until sunday, then I'll celebrate with family and relatives and have CAKE! ahh... Don't I look just totally gorgeous when I wake up? Coffee time then I have a presentation in school, the previous one went very well, but I have to be better today! After that I have to pick out the wallpaper for my apartment, I'm moving in pretty soon. Also, I have to take a trip down to the center for education to complain about something I really don't like, and see if I can study something during the summer so I'll finish faster. Also, I'm going to the library to see if I can find a Jane Austen book, or something in difficult English so I can expand my vocabulary and be better! Have to get my nails done and go out for a 9 laps long run, wanted to go swimming but I guess that I can forget about that, and I have to get my roots fixed, prepare for a debate that I'll be the leader of in English C, how am I going to find time for everything today? Exciting :) (Positive thoughts - no stress)
My birthday is coming to an end
What a great day! Beautiful weather, awesome presents, hundreds of friends wishing me a happy birthday, a fantastic time in the city with my "dupa" and a total weight loss of 6.5 kilos. Could anything be better? No, definitely not!
Thank you one more time! <3 Good night
<3
Thaaaank you for this so far wonderful day! I think it's the best birthday I've had! Soon I'll meet with my "dupa" Olivia, I'm updating later :)
15 April
Good morning! I woke up at nine, waiting for a birthday song... but didn't hear anything. So I went downstairs to have breakfast, got a HUGE diamond ring and a TV for my new apartment. In 30 minutes I'll go out for a run in a new pair of shorts (that I actually got from the kids section) and then I'll head down to the office of the company I'll rent my apartment from to pick out wallpaper, at the moment the walls are green! Yuk!
Later on today I have a date with my bank, Olivia and also a meeting about school, trying to finish everything as soon as I can, I have other plans that I want to spend my time on. Sing me a birthday song! Come on... anyone?
My new pair of shorts from the kids section, could that be some kind of crisis? I get older and try to stay younger by shopping from a section where 10 year olds shop. Oh well... who cares?
Get out in the beautiful spring weather and get your pulse up!
Uhuuuu
It has been my birthday for a few minutes... and I already got a new trip to New York... Holy FUCK I'm happy!
I'm a crying baby at the moment...
...
My last night as 20, tomorrow I'll be 21... And I think that it's great :)
Oh my god...
This will be in my dreams during my last night as 20. Thank you baby :)
Good morning!
7 laps! Time for my but workout!
You make me proud!
Do you know what the best thing about blogging is? It's that I get to inspire others to take care of themselves, stay fit and healthy... Boys and girls, men and women has told me that I inspire them to start getting better habits.
THAT MAKES ME SO DAMN PROUD!
Keep it up, you all deserve to be the best you can be!
Love <3
Casting day
I'm not going to be one of those who excuse themselves for not updating often, I'm going to write whenever I have something to tell you, no bullshit that is :)
It has been a looong day. Went for a jog this morning, 6 laps today, tomorrow 7 and so on until 10 on friday and then rest on saturday. Later I attended a casting for a movie, It would be great if I get the part, if I wont then it's okay because it was my first casting. But I'll keep my fingers crossed! Dinner at Mello Yellow and then I returned to Helsingborg and now I'm at home, going to get down and dirty with some fake tanning and tooth bleaching and then go to bed. Oh sweet shallow life, right!?
Yesterday I relaxed at a spa all day... It was fabulous but somehow I can't post the other photos... stupid Mac!
Spa
Noooo I'm not going to run! I'm going to a spa :D So this will be my rest day after all.
Rest or not?
I've been spending the last 30 minutes thinking if I should have a "rest day" today or not. Someone helped me with my decision, which is that I wont have a rest day today, because I'm very angry and want to get the hell out of this town faster. 
This is how I look, 6 kilos lighter AND the morning after a barbeque. Thank god my metabolism is speeded up!
Although, I will only run 5 laps today, I'm a little worried about my legs. They've been running everyday for more than 3 weeks, with only one day rest... poor legs! I need to take care of them. I'll have a rest day next saturday, after my tour with M! :) Shoes on and I'm out!
Shopshulahej!
Olivia is putting my make up on... I'm just trying to breath because we just had dinner... And I had too much... 15 laps tomorrow?
GIVE ME!
The third dress on the picture, I want it! Imagine... walking around an early evening with big curls in my hair and sun kissed skin, and 5 kilos lighter... oh sweet dream...
All of them are Vivienne Tam, summer 2009 creations. But the last one is really ugly.
yaaay!
I ran 10 laps this morning too :D And I'm down to 3.7 kg! I've lost 6.3 kg! Woho! 2 more weeks and I should be down all 10! I'll give myself 3 weeks.
Studies at Waynes
We are half done. I'm a master of power point and a master of mental strength. Therese is having lunch and it smells amazingly delicious but I'll have to be satisfied with my coffee. It's not fair... anyway, we'll kick as at our presentation!
I did it!
Oh my god! I ran 10 laps and did my exercises four times! So I've been working out for 2 hours and 30 minutes today... I think I can say "good job"! I'm down to 4.1 kg :) lost 5.9 kg. In an hour I'm meeting Therese for a school issue. I don't really know what we are supposed to be doing today, some kind of report. Oh well, I'm bringing my Mac so I'll update you later :)
For the first time in my soon 21 year long life, my mother told me that I look small/tiny... That is soooo amazing, you have no idea!
Have I went totally crazy?
I am going to do something very crazy now. I'm going to run 10 laps.... this will take a while!
My secret
The other secret is that this is a joke! Can't believe that some of you think that I'm serious... that's a DANGEROUS way of thinking!
I <3 NY - No shit!
I'm going to Väla to return my pedometer which is totally retarded. It says that I burn 1000 calories on a 30 min walk.
I'm also retarded!
It sucks to be...
What a beautiful day! Here in Helsingborg it's sunny and warm, one of the few days that I actually like it here. This morning I woke up and got an invite to a privat party with one of the biggest RnB / Rap artists there is. But I won't go because of different reasons, "It sucks to be meeeeee, It sucks to be meee" (singing). No It doesn't suck to be me... Anyway, I run five laps every morning as I presume you all know by now. And this morning I counted the minutes for every lap, and found out that one lap is 7 minutes, which means that I run for 35 minutes... And when I ran only 3 laps (first week) I ran about the same time, 3 laps on 35 minutes. What a great progress!
Anywaaaaaaay... My birthday is coming up, only a few days left as 20. It feels a little scary that I'm getting older but then again I've got my brain back and am working my but off to become something in life. I don't want to end up in a trailer with my 200 kilo husband and myself at 150, chain-smoking and conversing with bad words and having 10 kids that we only can feed with McDonalds because we can't afford anything else. I'm visualizing it at the moment... can't say that I like what I see... Then I can sing "It sucks to be meee".
The way I live
I fell asleep in the sofa and woke up just a few minutes ago, I have to wake up even more so I'm going out for a one hour walk in a few minutes, I only need to get dressed. Just want to say that I'm not pro-eating disorders, I just want to be the best I can be, just be happy and secure with yourself and don't let other people's perceptions of you dictate the way you life your life!
Just after 4 kilos :) Give me abs!
Don't be stupid!
I'm angry with some of you now...
First of all, more than HALF of my traffic is international. I got them when I started to write in English... And I WILL NOT start to write in Swedish again, get it? I'm not forcing anyone to read my blog, like it or get out! And I've been writing about why I do this, try to read it!
It's been 3 weeks, I've lost 6 kilos! That is 13.2 lbs... erhm... I KNOW what I'm doing, otherwise I wouldn't lose anything. I work my ass off, I eat VERY healthy. 4 months ago I threw my cigarette away after 6 years and don't smoke anymore... I consume about 300g (about 4 dl) of diet/light sodas a week, not even close to that... Don't you think that that's "okay"? I have like 2 glasses of wine a month... I take away almost everything that's bad, and still you find something!
Last year in september I decided to stop tanning, I've only went to the tanning salon like 4 times since september. I'm as white as the polar bear, but I made that choice, so that I lower the risk of skin cancer.
I am not putting in french fries in my mouth, neither do I eat cheeseburgers or cakes. The only bad thing I stuff in my mouth would be the cholesterol from the 3 eggs I eat per week. I don't think that anything I eat would be my death.
I am feeling GREAT now... I love every day and I love myself for staying healthy and learning better English each day!
Please don't mess with me while I have PMS, I love you all, on other days, but not when you don't think twice before posting stupid comments.
I'm getting a cup of coffee now... I wonder if it will kill me...
Breakfast
Breakfast, the best meal of the day! The little yellow bag with red berries are "Goji bär" in Swedish and "Wolfberry" in English. They are supposed to be some kind of "miracle berry" because it's high in vitamins and minerals.. So of course I'll jump on and try them...
I took a new fitness magazine with me from Helen yesterday because it's a few articles in it about running, suits me perfectly :)
Lunch or swimming?
Yesterday I and Olivia went down to the coast to have lunch. The weather wasn't beautiful, it was windy and a little cold but we enjoyed it anyway. On the other side you can see Denmark, the ferry takes only 20 minutes. Helsingborg is quite beautiful after all.
It's april, the sun has been shining a couple of days but it's still not summer. Although some of us think it is, so they decide to take a swim in the freezing water, and there is no place near to get warm... Can someone explain why people do this?
Beauty tip
Your hair is very fragile and I bleach my hair once every other month, but only so my roots match the length. That is tough for my hair so I try to do this as often as I can. I start with combing my hair and then I take a hair repair serum and comb it trough and take some extra along the length where my hair is the most damaged. Mine is from "phc" (professional hair care) can't remember the price or where I bought it, sorry. It contains provitamin B5 and silicone which is moisturizing and strengthens the structure of your hair. It also gets shiny and easy to work with.
When you've combed it trough your hair, make one or two loose braids and sleep with it. Your whole body has its repairing time during the night, so help it by using creams, oils, and whatever thats good for you. There's special products for night use, use what you consider the best.
Good night
Calorie free treat
You'll need:
- A non-calorie lemonade or soda (I use Fun Light Strawberry)
- Water (If the lemonade/soda is concentrated)
- Popsicle containers
Mix the lemonade/soda with water, pour it in the containers but not to the top, when it freezes it expands. Put the lid on and let them be in the freezer for a few hours. Take them out and enjoy :)
Works great for times when you really crave something sweet but are not allowed to. And the cold makes your body burn more calories because it needs to raise the temperature.
Fairy tale story
Imagine this... A hungry PMS bitch is going out for a run. She can't find her running clothes because someone else has them. She trips over herself a couple of times before she's dressed. Her head is aching and stomach screaming. She gets out and It's cold, her fingernails are blue and the wind is strong. She walks by a house with construction workers and they scream and yell like she's a piece of meat. Down in the tracks, she runs as fast as she can but slower than usual. Five times she meets a lady with a perfume that stinks horribly bad, people are smoking where she wants to run and she wants to vomit. Five laps later, she heads back home while coughing because of the smells, smoke and intense running. She passes by that house with the construction workers again and they keep on knocking on the windows and whistle. She is on the edge, one more thing and she'll explode... But, she didn't! She went home nicely, did the rest of her exercise routine, had a shower, made a cup of coffee and sat outside in the garden with a nice slow melody playing on the radio. Then she got on the scale and saw that she has lost 5.5 kg and thought to herself "This is a fucking hell, but totally worth it!"
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It's been a messed up day, I'll update you tomorrow after my run.
Good night <3
Half way there
I've decided to have my own "boot camp" this week when I'm free from school. I'm going to work out hard and be very strict with my diet so that the results come faster. Because friday the 17th I'll be in a bikini on a stage in two night clubs in Denmark for a competition for M! magazine. Exciting :) 
So far so good, the rest of the photo is only for "Herbert" ;)
Check my blog later, I'll give you a tip for a calorie free dessert!
Chills
This is beautiful. I'm lying in my bed, with only the light from my Mac, otherwise in complete darkness...
Listening to this song... amazing...
Saturday
Yesterday I and Malin went to Malmö and had a late lunch/dinner in the sun. The place was crowded and the Caesar salad was good and then we decided that we would go out for a few drinks during the night. I got a little tipsy and everybody else were too drunk, that really turns me off. Anyway... Don't know what to write today so I'll just give you the pictures.
Pizza or abs?
Last night I went out with Malin and had a lot of fun. This morning when I woke up I got on my running shoes and went for a run, isn't that just weird? A few months ago I would just go from my bed to the sofa, have a pizza and watch TV with a huge hangover, but not anymore :) And I'm down to 4.7 kg / 10.34 lbs, thats a loss of 5.3 kg / 11.66 lbs, almost there!
I have a few things to do but later I'll post the pictures from last night on my blog :)
Malmö!
It's a beautiful day!
I'm in a hurry now, going to pick up Miss Malin von Lidl and then drive to Malmö and yell and complain a little about two pairs of shoes we bought in Marbella earlier this year, they are both finito.
I definitely payed for that meal last night, this morning I ran 5 laps in Jordbodalen and did a double set of the but and ab exercise. And the scale showed me that I'm down to 5.7 kg or 12.54 lbs :) I'm soon halfway there!
I'll update when I'm back :)
Cheese
I just made something very unhealthy... I have to pay for it tomorrow morning!
Lan
Olivias farmor lanar och dricker jolt cola!
I'm on my way...
After a lot of hard work things are finally beginning to pay off. I've received mails about castings for movies and commercials and this is only the start of something much bigger, you'll see :) Hopefully I'll get the parts, cross your fingers!
After school I went with Olivia and bought a salad at Mezo and she had Ben & Jerry's ice cream (which I helped her to eat up). We sat down in the north port with the entire population of Helsingborg. The sun was shining and I could sit outside without a jacket on, fantastic feeling.
Have you ever thought about how gay Helsingborg looks? It's even more gay than NYC... and I'm not saying that It's something bad so don't kill me! But the girls look like boys and the boys/men dress in tighter clothes than scuba divers... I don't get it...
I don't want to go!
Next week I'm free from school so this morning my mother asked me what I'm going to do and I told her that I don't have any big plans, so she said that we could go to Poland for a few days and my reaction was "NOOOOOOOOOOO!" and then I realized that I'm not 16 anymore, I'm soon 21 and can decide if I want to go or not. When she asked me I could see myself gaining all of the weight I lost because my relatives in Poland feeds everybody like they have to gain a lot of weight. So if I would go next week I would come back with 5 kilos. I'm staying in Sweden and will have a boot camp for myself, more about that when I'm back from school.
New songs for tomorrow
These two songs are new ones for my running tomorrow, guess which one it will be when I run really fast?! ( I run fast a few minutes and slow a few and fast and so on...)
Kiss
No, I don't want candy... I want to kiss someone that's on the other side of the world, that sucks... :(
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Back at home again, didn't like my last lesson because of my teacher... She has heard things about me, other teachers talk very well about me and say how ambitious I am and that I'm a top student, but she still decides to hate me... why? I tried my best to make it work but she makes it impossible... I have to rest for 20 minutes because my head is spinning... and I want candy... damn...
Biology class
I'm back from my first class, we had biology and looked at mushrooms and plants and stuff. I and Therese tried to find the most dangerous mushrooms that we can make a soup of and feed to evil people (joke). We looked at photos of jellyfishes and I really do hate them, but when I see a bug or something similar I freak out and trow the book away, it's ridiculous but no one's perfect.
Mushrooms shaped as... dildo's? I wouldn't want to eat those, they don't even taste good, says my teacher. And they stink...
I'm going to make some lunch now, Therese will be here in a minute and I wont prepare anything with mushrooms because I'm disgusted by them at the moment. I think that we'll have some fish, like tuna, although we heard that there's a worm you could get though eating fish.. we heard some scary stories about students coughing up white worms, after eating fish... yuk! I'm going to eat it anyway..
The best beauty tip I have
My ultimate beauty tip is a luxuriously scented fragrance. If you feel ugly, have a bad hair day or whatever, put on your favorite fragrance and you'll feel gorgeous. My beloved one is from Lancome called "Attraction", I feel a hundred times better with it than without. Try it... think about how you feel without a perfume and then put your favorite on and feel how beautiful you are! You can put on tons of make up, dress in beautiful clothes but if you don't feel that you are beautiful, no one else will think that you are. I'm smiling at the moment, because of my fantastic run this morning at 7:30, because of the great songs on the radio, because of the wonderful weather we have here today and because of that I have my special fragrance on.
But I'm still a hippie, a hippie thats having coffee and breakfast in a minute.
Sleep
Good night kids, getting under the covers to have my beauty sleep. Tomorrow at 7:30 I'll be down in Jordbodalen for my wonderful running hour, I really do love it now! My god... imagine how my body will look in like 2 months... :D I will show you everything, just keep yourself updated here and sooner than you can imagine you'll see some awesome abs on my killer body. Tomorrow week 3 starts, another great week for achieving goals.
<3
Last meal
Third and final meal for the day. Tomatoes, kidney beans, cucumber and a carrot, 126 calories. I should eat 5 times a day but it doesn't work for me, can't do it... Because then I have to eat small portions and start early in the morning, it just ends with bingeing in something during the night, three times works excellent for me so I'll continue with that!
The total amount of calories consumed today is 697, I've decided to stay under 1000 a day until I've reached my goal weight.
Lunch
I just had lunch and I made a salad with cauliflower, yellow pepper, tomato, kidney beans, rucola, basil, egg and salmon. 
A total of 359 calories.
The weather is lovely so I'm heading out for a long walk :)
Worth fighting for
The day before I went to New York I had a test in a computer course, just a few minutes ago I got the result from the test, and I got "MVG" which is the best grade you can get. And if that isn't enough, I'm down to 5.9 kg / 12.98 lbs - I lost 4.1 kg / 9 lbs. I'm working so hard with everything and it's really worth it!
I'm having a cup of green tea and in a few minutes I'll eat breakfast, Cereals with pumpkinseeds, soy milk, sliced apple, cinnamon and linseed, delicious! A total of 212 calories.
